I don't even know if people check this, but I just wanted everyone to know that they were wrong....

I posted September 24th about my ex and I hooking up, and how I Just wantd to be with him...everyone told me to give up. And I didn't.

We are together and are completely and totally in love, and will hopefully be together forever.

Just goes to show that if you feel that something is right, don't be afraid to fight for it if you truly feel that its meant to be......

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So lately someone who I use to have a crush on has came back into my mind. Lately he's been coming into the place I work every so often and seeing him puts butterflies into my stomache. Its awkward bc I dont think he ever has or ever will feel the same way about me, so why the butterflies? I dont know what to do, and probably the only reason I'm even thinking about him again is bc I havn't had a boy in my life for awhile. I guess I'll just keep quiet about it and smile when I see him in the store.  

What would you do?

Long distance relationships are hard... and I knew that from the beginning. But it's really frustrating when I feel like I'm always the one calling him. And if he does call me, it's usually because he's returning my voicemail. There have been times when we've gone 3 or 4 days without talking to each other...not by my choice. I don't know what I can say to him to make him understand how much it bothers me to go days without talking.

He was supposed to meet me this weekend....but because of military obligations he can't, and I understand that. He can't control when the Marines tell him he needs to report in for something. So I've been trying to get him to come visit me at college, but again with no luck. I found out the other day that he's actually been working so much to save money to go visit a friend in the Air Force that stationed in South Dakota. This friend apparently has no one, and I have tons of friends at college...so he needs the visit more then me. But it still kind of hurts.

This is the second time we've done distance. And the first time it was amazing! He was finishing intelligence training and didn't have a cell phone, so I had no way to contact him. But he called me almost every day...and we would talk for hours. Sometimes he would give me wake up calls at 5am and sometimes he would call me multiple times a day.

I know he's capable of putting forth the effort to make this work. He has already proven that to me. Everything else about this relationship has been amazing...it was an instant connection the day we met. We broke up for a few days before I came back to college because he was afraid of the distance, and I had never cried over a boy so much before. And then he asked me take him back. I remember him saying, "I think i'm falling in love with you all over again." That means apparently he fell in love the first time. There is just something different about this.

I know this got really long, but I just want some advice or words of encouragement....something.

I don't know what to do anymore

My life seems to be crumbling beneath me.

I still like my ex,  and we keep hooking up, but sometimes its like he doesn't care about me anymore. One day he can't get enough of me, the next day its like I don't even matter to him. Sometimes I just feel used, but he promised me that hes not using me. He says that he cares about me, but then he acts like I don't even matter. I don't understand why he broke up with me because he acts like he did when we were going out, tells me I'm beautiful, we still go on what I would consider dates, we hang out all the time, tells me he doesn't want to hurt me, and still likes me......but doesn't want to go out with me. It just doesn't make any sense.

I'm just tired of hurting. I want to be with him.....

Anyone have any advice on what I should do?