| | I can't sleep.
I'm having the pillow/blankets issue again (i.e. feel guilty about
preaching anarchism and still living in a comfortable life style).
So I have no blankets or anything.
And its cold.
And I'm worried about life.
And my friends.
And my lack of band.
And facebook and myspace, and all other kinds of external distractions.
I fear the future, and what it brings for me.
I'm not comfortable living a comfortable lifestyle.
I feel awkward, weird, and a hypocrite.
I'm accepted into the southern Illinois school of art, and I'm the least artistic person I know,
and as far as I know,
I lack all other skills as well.
I really don't want to drop this whole punk/counter-culture thing when I hit 20
or 21
or ever
I don't want to feel like I have to change my ideas to fit in to an adult society
but it seems
it has to happen..
I'm really tired
but conscious won't let me sleep...
Only crack can save me now.
PS my apologies for moping
|
| | Posted 1/10/2006 1:49 AM - 1 view - 1 comments
- recommend
    - recs0
- give stars
- votes0
- share
- email
 - sent0
Give eProps or Post a Comment |