Well I'm slowly but surely learning that God works and moves in people in different ways, in His timing and by His grace alone.  I have made some pretty bad mistakes and some of those mistakes, I can't undo, but I'm thankful that I'm on this side and am able to make things right. So this is apart of making this all right. I've been so enveloped with what has been going on that I haven't taken the time to be there for you, my friends. I've shut myself in a cocoon where I hoped no one could touch me... where I could never get hurt. Instead, I was totally overtaken by bitterness, jealousy, anger and a general hatred of life and anyone that didn't agree with me.  I've shut you guys out... So I am here to apologize.. to each one of you. I hope that in the future, all can be made right and in time, things will get back to "normal"...

Thank you for your prayers...

I leave you all with one last thing...this is one of my favorite songs.

Draw Me Close To You

Draw me close to you.
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again.
To hear you say that im your friend.
You are my desire.
No one else will do.
Cause no one else can take the place.
To fill the warmth of your embrace.
Help me find a way.
To bring me back to you.

Chorus:

You're all i want.
You're all i've ever needed
You're all i want.
Help me know you are near.

Verse:

Draw me close to you.
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again.
To hear you say that im your friend.
You are my desire.
No one else will do.
Cause no one can take the place.
To fill the warmth of your embrace.
Help me find a way.
To bring me back to you.

Chorus:

You're all i want.
You're all i've ever needed
You're all i want
Help me know you are near.

Love you guys

 ~ Annie ~

I know it has been a while since my last post on here. I am just wanting to let you know that I am still here ..... alive and well. Right now is a difficult time and so my thought processes have been "not so good" shall we say. I know and trust that God IS in control. He knows what He's doing and I'm continue on knowing that He's here with me.

May His name be praised

Annie

Dear Friends:

I hate to write a blog like this, but it is necessary. Over the past few years I have been living a facade. I haven't been truthful to you myself, God or you guys. I want to take this opportunity to clear that up and to apologize.

I am not a Christian. There were some times that I truly believed I was. I really never have known God to be real to me... it was always the result of emotion/feeling.

I just want to say that I'm not giving up. I know that if I call on Him, He will hear and answer my prayer. I've always tried to do it on my own... never was willing to trust Him completely. I only imagined I did when I knew for dead certain I could do nothing at all. Please pray that God's way will be known me.

I don't have much else to say...

I love you guys

Ruth-Ann