Sunday, June 17, 2007

  • Its not all rainbows after all

    After watching North Country, my sense of activism shooted up the roof. Thanks to this, and some realities I've lately faced, I realized that the world isnt as pretty and friendly as the media told me. I felt a little guilty actually after watching this. Its because I kept complaining about how my hair looks and how I feel paranoid that the world is after me. But after watching this movie, I saw how futile and miniscule my problems are compared to theirs. I mean, what all these women have gone through is more like 1 million times worse than what Ive gone through, and the reality that this still goes on in society, not only locally but even internaitionally. Thanks to this summer, I saw this world as a playground, that happiness can be extracted from outings and other "cool" things teenagers my age wants to all go through, that happiness is to conform. But now I see this world as it really is, a rotten world, obsessed with the idea that you have to be someone in this world, to be normal, in order to be loved. I used to be in this mindset. I thought I have to prove that I was like everyone else, wherein I almost subtly chased after their approval. But now, my activism and the rebel within me seem to have taken over me. I have no idea if this is a permanent thing or just some post-traumatic effects of noth country, but for the first time Im on the side of the true and the right.

    I seen this site, and I think it contains sufficient discussion on how rotten the world is. http://www.xanga.com/Ian24601/597314098/a-world-worth-fighting-for.html. I think its time to fight for what I can and wait for the judgement of the heavens to rescue us. All those thoughts of injustice races in me, how men stomp around like giants and take the power from the powerless. And to add to the fury, one of my friend proudly proclaim that we should never break up with our love ones, since we'll end up alone and desperate. Its a pity some people can't love themselves by themselves. Why do they need to succumb to society's idea of normality or conform? I think I have to love society less, and love people I love more. I also have to love myself more, despite what society says.

Comments (3)

  • girl_smileyy
    i never got around to watching all of north country. didnt know it was that compelling!

    travelling gives me that renewed sense of wanting to "do" something as well.
  • sabrine38
    I noticed you commented on my blog last week and thought you might be interested to know I have posted a new entry this week.  It is titled “Stupid Girl, Stop.”    This week’s question: “Do you believe you’re not obligated to listen to the girl complain about her boy situation or listening and being there is what makes you a friend in the first place, even if it means being there all 52 million times she makes the same mistake?”   Check it out and comment at http://www.xanga.com/sabrine38   Thanks!!
  • wholesalepig
    Yeah I think the world is terrible in some part and stable in the other.  Isn't it hard to imagine there are wars going on right now but the start of the day when you wake up is all quiet.

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