Saturday, March 22, 2008

  • Red flower

    P1010008

    Well finally finished this piece. It has been unfinished for over a month, since I was basically just not inspired to finish it. In my experience, inspiration is an important ingredient in painting, without it painting would be very spiteful. I was al little disappointed with this piece actually because it feels like Im just imitating Frida Kahlo's work. She is my painting idol, and has great influence over my style. Now, I feel like I am just imitating her style in this piece and I lost my own personal style, my painting identity (which is another important ingredient for me, along with inspiration). I detest imitations, and it poses a major concern for me when I lost that certain feeling of iindividuality. I dont know about you, but it feels too Kahlo-ish to me.Is it really too much like her work?

    Another concern I realized today was the poem I did below (below average jane) was not appreciated by my mom. She thinks its too morbid, and considers me to have psychological problems. Grr.... Doesnt she get it that melancholy and darkness is just appealing to me? This is not the first time actually. The painting I did with the man with the hole in his heart also caused a slight stir in my parents' concern for my psychological well being. But honestly, I am not depressed or something---- or at least I think so (conciously).

    Now that I think about it, maybe there is some innner, subconcious struggle within me? Is it really just art, or really inner emotional struggle? :(

    At least the painting above was not considered by my parents as morbid.

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