Saturday, March 01, 2008

• I wanna be true to myself...

  Currently Listening U & Ur Hand By Pink see related

  I wanna be true to myself... and not be who I am not. I just want to find myself and get out of this mess. I can never speak my mind and never actually show everyone who I really am. Guys don't care about what's inside, they only care about what you look like. But when I find that one guy who doesn't care what's on the outside, and likes me for me, I don't think he could ever like me. Life is just so damn confusing! One day you're in, and the next day you're out. Life is a tangled web of things that no one can understand, and no one really ever wants to. Why must life be so hard? I know no one said that living was going to be easy, or that life would always work out, but for once, couldn't someone just show you the way? Make sure that you didn't make a mistake?

  

  Mistakes that I always make would have to be being myself. People just don't understand me and that automatically makes me weird. Being myself is never the right thing to do. I never get a break. I never get to tell the truth. I never get to smile and make it real. Everything I do is just to make others happy. But where does that leave me? I am not happy. I am not happy with the way people want me to be.   

  

  I just want to run away from it all. I want to start all over, and be myself through and through. Too bad I never can. I am scene on the inside, but my mom wouldn't like that. So do I tell her? I can't. I want to sing, but people put me and my voice down. So do I sing? I can't. I like punk rock stuff, but people will think I am a poser. So do I be myself? I can't.   

  

   

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