Thursday, March 06, 2008
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New Moon (The Twilight Saga, Book 2)
By Stephenie Meyer
see relatedToday and yesterday were VERY good. I had subs for two classes and just goofed off the whole day! Ha! But I have MAJOR news!!! This guy I really really REALLY like, might have a crush on me. These three girls on my bus have a theory: That he might (and probably) has a crush on me because whenever I am on the bus and ask him to come sit with us, he will, but whenever I am not on the bus and they ask him he won't. Also whenever I leave, (my mom picks me up at my ramp) he won't talk to anyone and will just be silent. Hmm... I don't like to hold out hope, but I am going to! I really don't want to ruin our friendship and I don't want it to be awkward between us, like when he wouldn't sit next to me today on the bus because he knows about "the theory." I don't want to talk to him about it AT ALL, but I want to know the truth. Someone please HELP! Ok, ok, I am done ranting about boys, back to the REAL world.
I got some really good advice from a friend. She told me to just be myself and not care what other people think. She is right, but I am scared. I don't want to be judged, and I don't want people to think bad things about me. Normally I would just say, I don't give a shit! Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession, but I am just soo confused! I will defiantely keep you guys posted though... Thanks!
Here is a poem/song I wrote and I wanted to know what you guys thought...
Mascara Streaked Eyes
I say whatever, And you think I'm okay. I say I'm alright, Do you think that's all I have to say?
You never even noticed, How I hurt so deep inside. You thought I really laughed, When all I wanted was to cry.
How could you not see the pain in my eyes? The blackness in my soul, my mascara streaked eyes? Now all I can say is, whatever, I'm alright. When I cry myself to sleep, every night.
I thought you care, Care about my for once! But you never even noticed, I was the suffering one!
How could you not see the pain in my eyes? The blackness in my soul, my mascara streaked eyes? Now all I can say is, whatever, I'm alright. When I cry myself to sleep every night.
You never even cared! I thought you were different! But you're the same, You're all the same!!
Thanks my loves! Talk to you lata! Ily forever!
xoxo
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Comments (4)
hey, how are you doing today?
And hun, don't worry about being judged. I felt/ and feel the same way as you. But i think of it this way, why care if you get judged or not. I mean, everybody gets judged and put into "groups". I'm put into a group with my friends, and i don't really care because i know that they are my true friends. [:
And about this Crush that you have. =] Is he already your friend?
Sorry if i talk to much, just tell me if im getting annoying. lol. x]
love ya too hun. [:
Ani <33
Haha, okay. =]
Awe, thats cute. Well, if he is your BGF, then you should go and talk to him about the feelings you have. I mean, if he is your BGF, then he would listen to what you have to say and be there for you no matter what. Because if he goes out with another girl, you'll be kicking yourself in the butt since it would be already to late to talk to him. ya know?
Ohmygosh! I hope you find your purse! I can't believe someone would steal it from you. o_o Such a mean thing to do.
So how was your weekend?
Ani <33
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