Saturday, April 26, 2008

  • Sick of the lies....

    Currently Listening
    Stupid Girls
    By Pink
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     I don't know what to do. I repulse myself and I am scared to fast. I really want to tell my other friends what is going on with me, but what if they don't support me. They will just say the exact same thing they always do to make me feel better.... "You are really pretty and you're not fat!" I am sick of the lies. I just want them to tell me the truth. I never know what to believe now. I just want the truth....

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Comments (23)

  • thinstitution

    hope you feel better soon, hun ^_^ i know it's hard to keep it all in sometimes, but trust me, it's better that way. I told my bf the truth and sometimes i really regret it.


    stay strong <3
  • Bitz_x3

    I hope everything works out for you. I know its hard, you should do whats best for you. good luck today! have a great day
  • DyingForMyControl
    Something sweet.

    I can't tell anyone I know in real life...I don't think anyone would understand...

  • ciaobeautiful85

    hey hun! i'm good how are you? i know how you feel, i've only told one person about my ed and i really regret it. she doesn't understand, no one except the girls on xanga really understands. why are you afraid to fast?


    think thin huni<33
  • starving_ANA_child

    Hi sweetie, thank you so much for the sweet comment. I completely understand what you are saying...but I want you to know that I'm always here for you if you need anything, even if it's just to talk! Stay strong and safe! You can do this! <33
  • somuchforhealthyliving

    Our friends could be the same people.

    Stay strong babe, I know you can do it!
  • livin_barbies_life

    i know how you feel but idk if they would support you.they might, they might not.but people do support you.good luck <3
  • destroyy_me
    thank you. you're amazing. i'm also here if you need. no lies, just the truth.
  • candypanicattack

    Awww thanks for the comment sweets! You're lovely. I'm sorry about your friends =/ I highly doubt they're lying to you though, they just have a different perception than you do. Try not to feel so bad about yourself. And don't worry, fasting isn't effective in the long term, you'll just yoyo up and down so instead of fasting, do some exercise and it might get slower results but they'll last <3
  • secret_battle05

    i agree hun. lies suck! but im sure your friends arent lying.


    staystrong


    xo
  • destroyy_me

    i'm good. better than i was a couple days ago. getting kind of weak from fasting tho.


    how are you?


    <3
  • ciaobeautiful85

    i'm pretty good. i'm really tired though lol. how are you?
  • wondering_babe

    thanks hun! ur doin gr8! i red ur post! if u need any1 to talk to u can always talk to me i have msn and everything :) xxx
  • justafrigginrayofsunshine

    girl.
    you are beautiful.
    what are you? a size 2?
    please, I'm a size 6...
    Your hair is awesome, I've tried to do mine exactly like that...but mine is toooooo flat or whatever...
    don't let life get you down, okay?
    I know it's hard sometimes, but just look in the mirror and find one good thing about yourself...focus on that...and say to yourself everymorning, "I am beautiful."
    I know it sounds corny, but it works, I swear.
  • wannabethinagen

    thanks for subbing! i could never tell my friends about this, they all seem to have some personal vendetta against any type of eating disorder. its a very annoying thing at my school that people are like omg you're anorexic if someone doesn't want lunch or something.its seen as something where you can't be friends with that person anymore if they don't eat one meal. its ridiculous.


    peace and love

  • aestheticailment

    thanks so much, im here for you too. i know what you mean about being sick of the lies. it annoys me too, stay strong <33
  • Neverr__Enough

    Thanks ,hope you're doing well yourself??
  • Make_x_Me_x_Happy

    Hey darling, it sounds like you're hitting a rough patch.  Try talking to a school counselor or schedual an appointment with a psychologist/psychiatrist.  Thank you for the comment =)
  • Make_x_Me_x_Happy

    Hm.. I realized what I said for advice may not make much sense.  What I mean is, I understand how you want to talk to someone and have them not judge you and all.  One of the people mentioned above will be trustworthy.  That way, you do not need to risk friendships and are able to talk through your problems.  Also, maybe the person will have ideas on how to approach the subject of your problems with your friends.
  • LaksLICIOUS

    @justafrigginrayofsunshine - about your hair, back comb it and put some freeze hold hairspray in it =)


    i do all my mates' hair and they all love the styles


    xXxLaksLICIOUSxXx
  • justafrigginrayofsunshine

    @LaksLICIOUS - OH! Thanks for the advice!  It always just seems like my hair is too fine...too smooth or something because it always just lays flat. idk why.
  • Jantingg

    i know how you feel


    i can only talk to one of my friends, and of course they're going to say your pretty and skinny, they're your friends, but what really matters is your own thoughts and views on yourself. no ammount of compliments and reassurance is going to change that...


    cheer up though!


    at least you know your friends are trying to make you feel better :)
  • Jantingg

    heyy


    im actually pretty good today :)


    last night was wild lolll


    and tonight im going to a restaurant on south bank in london


    how are you yourself??


    add my myspace (Y) :)


    www.myspace.com/dolli_rock


    xxxlove xx
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