Wednesday, May 14, 2008
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Don't Speak Liar...
"I'm so sick,
Currently Listening
Every Second Counts
By Plain White T's
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Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick"
Sorry for not updating sooner. Life has been pretty much at it's shittiest.
Right now, the only thing that seems real and that matters, is this. You guys support me no matter what, and I can't get that anywhere else. No one can see through my mask, and see how I really feel. My mom is always on my back, I am weighed down with work, and I can't seem to have fun anymore. But I plan to dance like a retard on Saturday. No one should be home, and I need to wind down.
Everyone just expects so much out of me, and the more they expect, the less I can give. No one knows what to say to me anymore to get me to the surface. I feel like I am drowning and I can't be saved. I am being drowned with drama, and stress. I really need to reach the surface...
I promise to update more soon. Possibly on Saturday. I love all you guys with all my heart and can't thank you enough for your support.
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Comments (14)
i can completely relate to you right now. i havent felt this numb in a while.
feel better im here if you need to talk
numbness, seems like we're all going through it
on saturday, dance away, dance like you've never danced, and most of all, breathe and tell yourself how special you are
<33 im here for you =)
xXxLaksLICIOUSxXx
talk to me.. we can support each other i cant deal with my mind right now and i need to talk to someone. lets help each other out ... whats wrong ?
Hey darling, I hope that Saturday is just what you need to feel better. Keep your chin up, happiness has to be close.
When it gets dark enough you can see the stars
The quote above means that even when life gets really really really shitty...you will always find your way throught it to happiness. It takes time, but you just have to be really really really strong. I love that quote...it helps me to stay strong and start to think of the good things in my life, other than the bad for once. In fact, it's tattooed on my right side of my hip.
i've been there. i think we all have. the problem is that you can't expect people to pull you ouit of your comfort zone, you have to do it. remove your own mask and show everyone who you are. it's something you have to do, no one else can. and when you do you'll feel so much better. really. and i know you probably dno't believe me, but i've been thru that before, and it WILL get better one day. but you have to be patient and wait for it. just say "fuck everyone! i'm gonna be happy god dammit!" and then do it. just fucking do it! i'm serious.
Awesome!! Im rly glad i could help!!! <3 stay strong.
Honestly, Im really struggleing right now. I dont even know who i really am anymore. My life revolves around ana. I think im starting to hit rock bottom so to speak. sucks. I ate tonight, and i ate a lot. I think i did it cuz i wanted to rebel against ana...or against myself...i dont really know. This disease is really starting to play with my head these days.
Thanks!!
I really am trying to be my strongest...sometimes i just get really low, but i know im not the only one and i know it will get better through time. Im going to try and avoid the scale for atleast a day...maybe that will help.
<3thank you
mazin song hun
Heyy! thanks for your comment on my entry. it really means alot that you liked it and that it touched you. im really sorry about your dad, i know what it feels like. and if you ever need someone to talk to about it im here! hope everything works out.
Ashley =]
hay girl keep that chin up...sorry I havent checked ur site in a few days I have been mega busy getting back home and moving all my stuff out my drom.....sounds to me like you really needed me to give ya some words of wisdom and faith....I hope you are feeling much better by the time you read this...if not just come to my page and tell me what has been goin doin lately I kno shit is tuff, but you will get through it we all do.....it may seem a little overwhelming, but I kno u will pull through...I kno what it is like to have so many people expecting so much of you, but what you have to realize is sometimes even if your best isnt good enough for others, it is all you got and if they are gonna wrongfully judge you because of that then they really are not thinking about u.....keep on trying boo it will pay off....eventually....
Austin
thankss so much =]
How you doin girl....holla at me !!