A few days ago my ex, who shall remain nameless, IMed me again. I've been just hoping he'd leave me alone but i don't think he understands that. Its not that I hate him. Hate is a strong word. But I really, really, really don't like him. Anyways he sends me these pictures we took in the fall of 07 when we were still together. I guess he's getting nostalgic for disaster. He gets that way every now and then and expects me to join in the reminiscing but I'd rather choke on a fork! I told him he should delete the pictures. I said I didn't like the way I looked which isn't entirely true (Its just so terrible how I used to dress back then!) but really the reason I told him to delete them is because I don't even like the fact that he still kept pictures of me. I deleted every one I had of us the day we broke up. Then he says I should come over to his house "one of these days" to go swimming. Thats when I got angry. I know it seems like I'm mean as hell but if you knew the guy you'd understand. I can already tell what he's trying to do. Why would I go swimming
alone with my ex (who I secretly hate)? Well, in his sick little mind maybe he's thinking that we'd see each other again and make up and start going out again, but theres a catch - I'd only be for the summer, until I go back to college at which point we'd never see each other and the only thing we'd have to do is talk on the phone and then I'd realize how boring he is and how much I hate his personality (or lack thereof) and we'd break up again. It happened before, many times. We'd talk on the phone, realize we hate each other's stupid guts, fight, break up, see each other again in person and just be physically attracted to each other and then start the vicious cycle again. So thats what really gets me, if thats what he's expecting to happen he deserves to be snapped in two because thats just cruel, to play with someone like that. But its alright, I'll be fine because I've already decided that he'll never see me again, no matter what he does.
Anyways...if you didn't notice, i use a lot of lines from songs in my blogs. idk y. but if the shoe fits....
After three days of work I've decided this job doesn't totally suck
Sometimes, I don't want to go but thats only because I'm lazy and I'd
rather sleep in and do nothing all day but I'm too old for that now,
apparently. Sometimes, I look forward to going, its actually sort of
fun. I remember when I was a kid I used to play "supermarket" with my
friends or my little sister and I always wanted to be the cashier.
Damn, just typing that makes me feel lame as hell. smh. Let's change
the subject.
Luckily I do
get fourth of July off, but I still can't go away I have to be back the
next day for work but whatever. I can still do something at least. But what?
Comments (2)
lol I definitely noticed the song lyrics "nostalgic for disaster". etc
any whooooo I know you're probably sick of me saying this...but, you and I are scarily alike. I have the same problem with this guy that ive been on and off with. We seriously have nothing in common besides the fact that we're sexually attracted to eachother, we like to laugh, and we have big dreams. That's it ! He's been trying desperately to get me to hang out with him, but i'm not giving in
not again....ive done it so many times and it was foolish. So, I feel you pain. I do. Guys effn suck! They always do that....call on you when it's convenient for them. What about us? What about how we feel? If you're not making the effort to contact him, he should take the hint !
and yaaay for the 4th off!
Umm... if you dislike him so much why even answer his IMs?
Most guys keep a portfolio of all their exes mainly to for nostalga and to brag to her friends assuming the exes look good lol. It's strange but true actually.