I'm stuck here with my thoughts
Wish I could erase them
Leave me alone please
I will only talk
When I want to
Try all you want to get
Me to talk to you
But you will fail
Because I'm on lockdown
I need this time to think
About other things
Distract myself with life
I have enough to think about
Without you on my back
Please shut the fuck up
I don't want to hear it
Stop the dreaming
I will do what I want
I need some time
To get away
Sit in the sunshine
Away from the world
Wish I could get away
From the drama and baggage
Sometimes you need a break
I'm leaving for now
Leaving you
But I will be back
Don't worry about that
I just need time for myself
To reflect and develop
Rush me and I'll leave forever
So please don't push
Because I will jump off
If this pressure builds up more

I don't know what to do. With all this stupid drama I'm running away from, it keeps coming back to me. What have I done to deserve this? Usually I'm the one trying to stop the drama from happening and no surprise, I'm in this position again. Argh...

So much stuff to worry about. Class registration. Club events. Other little things. Family issues. I need to relax badly. Good thing formal is coming up, I need to let all this stress out.

Poem time...

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This is a fake love we're having
More like unconventional
I need you and you need me
We complete each other
Black and white
Positive and negative
I want it be like this
Forever and ever
Peacefully sitting here
My head on your shoulder
Closing my eyes and sleeping
Away from reality
Because you are there for me
We will make through this together
Sometimes life throws obstacles
In your way to stop you
I jumped over those hurdles
But now I face this one
Old feelings rekindled again
My heart is racing for you
Even though I know the future
Is bleak for our love
Its still nice to dream
I'll keep dreaming
<3