| | Hey ppl. I know I haven't updated for awhile. And I know I get onto all of you for not updating, but... oh well too bad.
I haven't had a very good day. I mean it was wonderful cause I
went to church and got to spend the day with my baby. But I broke down
today. I don't know why. It's just sometimes I'll get into one of my
moods and the slightest little insignificent things will set me off.
Then I'll start saying stuff like I'm worthless and i'm not good enough
for anyone and shit like that. But of course you can't blame me. That's
pretty much all I've heard for the past 5 years. And after awhile it
sinks in and you just can't get it out of you're head. But you've all
heard this before, so, just know that I'm much better now. Maxtifer let
me yell and scream and cry at him and helped me get it all out. I don't
even remember what all I said. I can't think about it though. Kris told
me it would be better for me if I didn't. He's so perfect, I just
hope he realizes that someday. but yeah. I get to spend the day with
him tomorrow to. I love him so much. Even though alot people say I
don't. Maybe they're right. I just know that when I see his face or
hear his voice or feel his arms around me things don't seem so horrible
anymore. I don't know, maybe i'm just crazy but for a second I actually
think that maybe things will work out for the best. Maybe there is some
plan for me. Maybe just maybe I'm meant to do something...meant to be
something...maybe...
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| | Posted 7/19/2004 2:06 AM - 1 view - 1 comments
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