| | Why do I constantly do the wrong thing? Why am I such a bad person? Why
can't I ever be loved? Everyone says they love me but one way or
another I figure out that they don't. (Penguin & Kris not included)
No matter what I do everyone's always against me. My "friends" now hate
me. I don't even know what I did. I guess I'm just such a horrible
person that I can't even tell when I'm doing something wrong. I hate
feeling like this. But there's nothing I can do! I have to stop lying
to myself. I'm a bad person. Nothing can change my mind about that. If
I weren't then why does everyone hate me? My own sister calls me a
bitch at least 3 times a day. If I weren't then why do I wake up almost
every morning feeling empty inside? That's not a good feeling, good
people don't feel like that.
Not that anyone's going to read
this anyways, I'm not that loved, so I'm just going to talk about
random useless things (like me)
Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................................
I learned a word in french, Le Cochon! I'm not going to tell you what
it means. You'll just have to figure it out for yourself! :p And I
might get a french horn for 2700$ which is pretty good. It's been
slightly used and it's silver. Not silver like the metal silver in color.
And it's so pretty. But I'd have to pay for it with my money and it'd
just be a waste of money to spend that much on me. (Sorry guys I'm
trying really hard not to be depressed, but it's kinda difficult when
your own friends are making you feel like the scum of the earth) and
um... I decided since people keep telling me I'd be a horrible mother,
I'm going to give up my life long dream of ever having kids and
becoming a choir teacher instead. Thats's it! I give up no matter how hard I try my head
just won't be happy today, so bye
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| | Posted 8/22/2004 8:27 PM - 1 view - 2 comments
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