Thursday, July 20, 2006

  • I am:

    Currently Listening
    "Creedence Clearwater Revival - Chronicle, Vol. 1: The 20 Greatest Hits"
    By Creedence Clearwater Revival
    Proud Mary
    see related
    really really sleepy, so forgive the nonsense...

    measured out in long teaspoons (oft used for ice cream)
    a silhouette of myself
    a daughter
      a wife
        a lover
          a friend
    a wanderer
    a music junkie (look at the rings under my eyes if I have to do without)
    a psuedo-poet
    a milkmaid, in fancy - hair long and wrapped in coarse cloth, smelling sweet like life and earth
    a mezzo-soprano when it needs it, stooping low as Morrison when I can
    not a spinster, though I love the word
      a wordsmith
    an awkward dancer, gyrating to the beat thrumming through my being
    a Leo, proud and loud
    a grinning klutz

    Is what you do who you are?
    Everything I do is what I am, even when I'm not doing what I want to be doing.  It's what I allow to happen or what I make happen, and I am responsible for it.

    Is what you eat who you are?
    ice cream and salads and inexpensive groceries - these are choices of my taste and talent.  They create my form, and my form helps create my idea of who I am, which is, again, just a silhouette.

    Is what you wear who you are?
    an emerald engagement ring, a pair of clogs, and long hair - these are garments of my vanity, a part of me

    Is what you read or what you watch who you are?
    a Trekkie, a lover of fiction, of sappy romance and mystical poetry, of gut-wrenching, evil prose - they're all part of who I am

    Is what you think who you are?
    Ah, the great subjective.  I am what I think I am is almost true but not quite.  There is much beyond what I think and what I know.  I am a child of God, as so many others have writ, and what God has in store for me, what He created me for, is beyond my scope right now. 

    Is what they think who you are?
    Objective.  Being.  Others.  Yes, what others think of me I am.  It is our communal One, the subtlety between subjective and objective, the "Quality," I guess, that Pirsig speaks of in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. 

    Is being on the right team who you are?
    If the right team means professing the beliefs and ideas I believe to be true, then yes.  It is part of how I think and how I act.  It does not consume me, but it is a part of me.

    Is what you believe who you are?
    This may be the closest to what I am.  But what about the objective reality outside my fantasies?  Or is William James right?  The schizophrenics in their lost worlds know worlds beyond ours.  How real are they?

    Is what you say who you are?
    Every word I utter, even the senseless chatter, is a part of what I contribute to this reality.  Interconnected, everything, intertwined.

    Who are you?
    "I really wanna know."

Comments (19)

  • baldmike2004

    Dear Emily,

    You were so sleepy you put your link on the wrong entry, but I put it up at the top of my blog under the header, and I think that's where most people get to the Internet Island entries. I would like to know your obsevations on my own entry (for which you put your link) since I always enjoy hearing your point of view.

    A very poetic assessment, and I would take that "pseudo" off of the "poet" line. As a poet who has been writing for longet than you've been alive, I've read quite a few poems in my history, and yours are no less "poetic" than any published writer. You are not "pseudo". Perhaps it's just the silhouette.

    Thank you for participating. You always have choice beachfront property on the Internet Island.

    Michael F. Nyiri, poet, philosopher, fool
  • aliashope
    Oh!  I like this!  I'm wondering about the "silhouette" of yourself.  I guess I'm not sure exactly what you mean.  I think I often only feel like a sillouette of myself still not yet knowing exactly who I am.  That's the way I'm taking your post now, though I want to know what You mean by it.
  • ydurp
    This was soooo you :).  Boo was talking about whimsy today and that's a word you know something about.  I was gonna take the bait but I'd rather talk about you.  Because I think this post makes evident how unusually authentic you are for someone your age.  And it think it stems from your answer to "Is what you believe who you are?"
  • wwwCarey

    Don't go changin' to try and please me... dadadadada
    I love you just the way you are...

  • Zeal4living

    I am interested to meet and read more about the wanderer!

    I am a concentration of consciousness floating around the internet island...meeting all the Internet Islanders.

    Glad to see you living on the island.
  • SKEPTIC_LIBERATION

    you got me at grinning clutz, kewl.

    johnm
  • InkStainedFingers
    I like it all...but I especailly love the last line "interconnected, everything, intertwined."
  • pray14me
    Very well put, and I am still feeling that you are banging your head to the Who. I wonder how many of us old geezer's thought about The Who, when this was posted. Oh yeah, I think Bald Mike had the Who on his music, it was a subliminal plot to entice us all into buying ticket to that World Tour they are planning. Aarrggghhh...
    Anyway, nice post, forgive me because I have this tendancy to go off the deep end sometime.
    Thanks for dropping by, and for the props.
    Tricia
  • Betrayed1959

    Hi from another Islander.  I love this post.  You are a poet.  Baldmike is right.  I hope to read many more of your creations.

    Kat
  • ydurp
    Why, thank you.  But I know you, you clever girl, you're trying to raise the bar.  I'll have to start toning it down, shooting for the lower end of the top five:).
  • douglasg610
    You're interesting when you're tired!

    Oh, and I wrote some stuff.
  • StinkyPinky
    Beautifully said. Who am I? For some reason I want to sing the Joker( picker grinner lover sinner Joker smoker midningt toker sure dont wanna hurt no one Ohhhhhhhhhh ohhhhhhhhhhhh) but I just got up so ... maybe I'll just check in later.  Have a great day! Thanks for sharing.
  • aliashope
    I really enjoy that, too, not really knowing exactly what you mean by something, and not being able to pick and parse it apart, but having it feel so true and right.  I think a great deal of my poetry is that way for me.  I'm not really having a "problem" per se with On Beauty.  It's been slower for me than I'd like it to be, and I do dislike the whole infidelity thing.  I'm not very far still (about 140) but I'm hoping to read today.  Hopefully with the promise of improvement, I'll be able to get further.  It's improved a bit, but I'm still really worried about Kiki and Howard....  Come to think of it, why would we need to wait to talk about On Beauty until we've finished it? 
  • sabrafox
    I am a work in progress, a living sacrifice that keeps crawling off the altar, a hypocrite like King David with a heart that strives to be closer to my creator.  I am ugly and beautiful and brilliant and foolish and an old soul since I was a child.  I'm a living breathing paradox that runs the race and fights the good fight and relishes what's in store while struggling to push through the present.  I am royalty and a peasant, giving and selfish, bold and cautious.  I am overworked and underutilitzed, rich beyond my wildest dreams but with moths flying out of my pocketbook.  I'm a reformed harlot who works to walk in purity and virtue, a sinner saved by grace.
  • The_Old_Girl

    you know, i think i always knew that you were the english middlemas maiden type and now you have confirmed it!  -g 
  • soonaquitter
    A milkmaid indeed, as some of us long to be! Very interesting tale of you!
  • jassmine
    Just great post. I am tired today because of the heat but gained lots of insight from the week away from the computer good to change things a bit gives us a different perspective. Judi
  • jassmine
    I loved this tale of you. I can just see you as a milk maid. smile, Judi
  • Viccieanne
    you may have been tired but you did a great job with this

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