A couple years ago, December 19, 2003, I broke my foot. I was off work
for three months. Couldn't drive. Had my (driving) foot in a "moon
boot" for three months. Had to have physical therapy when it came off
because my Achilles tendon needed stretched, my muscles needed built
back up, and my right arm wasn't healed yet from the injuries.
Three months. Couldn't go anywhere unless someone came to get me and
took me there. Shopping, church, anywhere. Fortunately, someone did,
once a week.
I did a lot of reading. And writing. Before I had a Xanga blog.
I often wish I'd had Xanga friends back then.
Anyway, I did spend a lot of time with God back in those months. And I
was surrounded and lifted up with Grace. I didn't know just how much
until it left me when I was released to go back to work. It was
tangibly noticeable to me. Then I realized how much grace had surrounded me, how close God stayed to me.
I have felt that grace lift off me again these past few weeks. I have
wondered why I "took it" for so long at work, why I didn't react
sooner, why I stayed.
There was no one incident that "broke the camel's back." It was
all there, all the time, from the first day. It wasn't that I didn't
notice it, but that I felt shielded from the craziness, the insanity I
saw around me. I was amazed some days at how calm I was about it all.
Peace in the midst of the storm. Great grace was upon me.
Who can say what the reasons were that I needed to be there for the
time I was? Whether for my own sake, the sake of others, or both, who
can say but God alone? All I know is that the grace lifted and I
was free to move on, in spite of the sadness I feel for leaving the
people I grew close to.
They're still playing politics with me, even now. That's okay. Great grace is upon me again.
It's a new day....
Comments (11)
I left a job once and I didn't realize until I left that it was the biggest burden in the world lifted from me.
I can't believe your profile pic. You don't look anything like I expected.
You look great by the way.
I must say, you have a most exceptional way with words. When you speak of Grace and knowing what that is, I think I almost understand peace and serenity, calm. The ability to know God's will for you, and knowing when it is time to stay or time to go is incomprehensible to me. I pray everyday just to know what that is. I hear the voice of Maria in the "Sound of Music" say "To know the will of God" over and over in my head as she is speaking with Mother Superior.
Bless you!
My Prayers Always! :yes: