I had to give up one of my cats today.
She wasn't meant to be an indoor cat, so I gave her to someone who could let her be outside or inside.
Even though she was a lot of trouble for me, and for the other cats, she had a sweetness about her at times.
And even though I know she'll be okay, I still feel bad about giving her up.
I have always had a very strong sense of loss and abandonment. No doubt some of what I feel is my own feelings transferred to her. I "worry" that she feels abandoned, unwanted, and unloved.
Like I have always felt.
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RYC: I think it's Bobby and Cheryl snooping around, personally. I had a lot of visits from some xanga user named PolarLarry, who set up his xanga account the day after the interview aired on the news. No profile, no posts, nothing. I blocked him. He sent me a friend request, which I denied by saying "I don't know you." Weird! That could have been Bobby as well.
Watching Raven and Bella come to our house when we adopted them was amazing and almost funny (they lived in separate houses but I think one had 15 cats and one about 25). They got to our house, walked around, looked at each other and seemed to say, 'hey, there's no one here but you and me. I think we can make this work!' They've been pals ever since.
I know it's hard, but you did it for a good reason.
*hug*