The spiritual journey is an ongoing one. I realized yesterday how long it's been since I kept a spiritual journal or just sat in the quiet and listened.
I struggle at times with wanting to balance closeness to God with not going the way of religion, as in doctrines and demands made on people by religious people who care a lot about appearance but little for the love of God or others, who treat those who disagree as outsiders at best, as lepers at worst, as though the audacity of keeping an open mind and exploring the many ways people have tried to connect with the spiritual may contaminate them if they get too close.
Last night I couldn't sleep. Didn't feel good all day yesterday - heck, all week for that matter. Can't really pinpoint it; just not feeling good. I know the Actifed knocked me for a loop yesterday, but today I just feel like I need to regroup, retreat, introspect, reconnect. Heck, I even wish I could find a church that wouldn't look down on me for admitting to my Catholic background and leanings. Not doctrinally, but for the richness of it, for the golden thread of historicity, the mere thought of all the art and architecture and music produced by those who were so greatly inspired to reach the highest heights.
The highest heights. I think that there are those who are aiming for that, yet get lost in the worldliness of fame and ambition, untempered by humility or genuine reverence for the God who is, much less inspired by his love to do good to all without an eye to the self-serving agenda.
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