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| I know it's late...
but i'm So overwhelmingly emotional.
I can't stop thinking about Timmy.
This video his friend made of pictures on onetruemedia.. is too much to handle.
I have yet to see his headstone.. with his name on it... but there it is..
blazing in front of me on facebook.
I need to go there.
I feel like I'm burning inside.
I was so ready for our next adventure...
I knew it would be a long way off.. after college...
but I wanted what out parents have... a lifetime,
a lifetime to do whatever happens.
I hate that he's gone.
Our fun as children needed a chance to mature.. to have fun together.
I just think of playing asshole at the beach house..
and me falling back in my chair to the fall...
and everyone laughing... and timmy laughing...
i loved it... we had fun.
I wanted more of that.....
God... I hate this.
I hate what my cousins and aunt and uncle have to go through..
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| Some things I found onlineGoogling my cousin:
"Hey folks, we're here again live at the Nassau Class B championship between Garden City and South Side. This game quite possibly pits the county's top offense against the top defense. South Side came out rocking its red practice jerseys with former teammate Tim McMullan name and No. 22 on them. A nice look."
"Expected to compete for a county championship this year, South Side orchestrated a multi-layered transformation of both the program and its image. Players participated in yoga to prevent injuries, and volunteered regularly with South Side's CORE program for special needs students. Adding to the of gravity of the situation was the death of Tim McMullan, a reserve attackman who died from head injuries after he fell down a set of stairs in January. "We think of how lucky we are every time we touch the field," said senior co-captain Colin Serling. "We enjoy every minute of it.""
"On the other side was No. 1 South Side, summoning the memory of former teammate Tim McMullan, who died in a tragic accident in January, as the Cyclones huddled in the midst of their toughest test yet."
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| i feel like exploding.
I don't know why.
It's crazy.
It's been a relatively slow day at work.
Most people took one of their summer fridays today.
I just feel like blowing up.. and honest to God energy in me.
I feel pissy... annoyed... I don't know why.
Little things all day were getting on my nerves...
but nothing substantial.
Somehow I now feel crazy.
No one is really here, either.
I stayed late because Josh is in Miami and I'm not in a rush to
go home to an empty apartment.
I'm supposed to be meeting people out tonight, but that may have fallen through.
I know me and Roberto are meeting up, but everyone else.. i'm not sure.
Maybe that's pissing me off.
I got excited about tonight,
but maybe no one else was really thinking about tonight.
I have my own personal excitement sometimes..
and when others don't know it's suppose to be long awaited..
they don't know and don't think of it the same way.
It's nothing really big..
I guess I'm just really exhausted.
Long week.
But productive week.
I miss Josh!
We walked by the Apple store this morning while we went to get coffee.
The iPhone line was around the corner to Madison. Crazy.
The employees were lined up by the exit..
every time a customer came out with their iPhone.. one at a time..
The employees would all give a big applause.
So Stupid.
It's a phone.
It's great.
But, come on..
We stopped in LV to look at some new prints they are using.
Cute stuff for the ladies.. some nice belts though.
blah...
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| 4th already?It is surprisingly already the 4th of July again! Who knew it would come so fast again!
Things change, people change.. all that good stuff.
Josh is coming out today for a day at the beach house with my whole family.
I love this holiday... though it will be a first without Timmy.
Strange feeling.
Summers were always his time of year...
that and Christmas.
Any time when he was running around or getting fun presents..
it was his prime time.
Anyway. Here we all are.
My sister is having her 5th Anniversary.
They finally have a baby.. little Logan.
I held Logan yesterday!
He was so cute.
He squirmed and was sleeping.
I asked "So... what else does he do? When does he walk?"
haha.
I'm excited for all that stuff.
We were talking about Logan and how mike is prepping him for sports and all that good stuff.
Lauren said "What if he gets into the arts?"
I said " That's what Uncle Billy is for." haha
Family.
Love them.
Happy 4th!
And a belated happy Canada day!
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