| its been so longi used to love to write in this thing everyday. ive been thinking about writing a blog for a while now. xanga is one place i can come and express all my feelings and i know that no one really reads it.. even though i put it out there in public hoping the the people i write about will actually read it and get a hint.
ever since new years things have just been so different. the group has split up and i lost a great friendship. now when that one person wants information or wants to vent about something of course she comes to me. its nice to be able to talk to her but she doesnt care about my problems. she just wants me to listen to hers bc no one else will. i dont have a problem with that but the least she could do is be a good friend to me. so many things have been inching up my neck. my one best friend is going through hard times and i only want to be there to help but i can only do so much. for the past week all thats been on my mind is college. i just want to go to coastal. i tried so hard. i retook the sats and then the acts and i got the score i needed. if i get rejected after all of this i have no where to go. why would God make me do so much work and then just take college away from me. God knows i need to get away. i know that He works in mysterious ways but i hope that He doesnt let me down. He knows how much this means to me. blah i hope things work out.. not only for me but for the people who really need it. the two people who i wrote about in this blog definitely need help also but as of now were all just waiting for the day that things will change..
graduation is a little over a month away..thats kinda scary but i cant wait for that day. |
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| im in kendras room and im not letting her on the computer because she has to pack so im going to tell you about LAST SATURDAY MEETING DRAKE BELL so it started off as a normal saturday. i went to the football game . which we won !! then everyone packed into big blue and went to marks house. i stayed back waiting for my madre to pick me up and to go to the concert..stephanie was in the car also. we fought for a while then drove down the parkway to pnc. as we got to pnc i start freakinnnnnnn out. stephanie has to go to the bathroom so the first place we went was around back to the bathroom and sure enough there was DRAKE behind a fence. im about to cry ajdkfshglajdfhglajkdfhglajksdhfgljasdhfgjshdfjlgsg [my emotions] so anyway after like 10 mins of watching him through a fence he came over. i took pictures of him and then he shook my hand.. i was so love struck all i said was 'HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII' anyway. when he looked at me he gave me a 'i know your totally embarassed to be here but thanks for coming' kind of look. I WAS IN LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..... after all that he had to go get ready for his concert. so me my mom and steph went to try and get a good spot to watch him sing. of course there were none so i stood to the side. i still got a pretty ok view of him. so i watched him sing and fell more and more in love then he was over and he came out and i was sooooooo close to him but he went behind security and left. then it was over.. iufeghakdjfghajdfg but still i got to him in person so DREAM COME TRUEEEEEEEEEEEE<3 she falls to her knees screaming god please
make something of me. cause i never wanted anything
like what i wanna be right now .. an angel again somehow |
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| I MET DRAKE BELL!!!!!!! ILL UPDATE WITH DETAILS LATER :) |
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| myspace is down... lame
anyone on??? comment me |
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| home from disney world. im soo freakin scared for tonight. like its soo random and weird. i mean im soooo excited and happy but im also very very nervousss.
ahhhhhhhhhh klahgfkjlahgfkjadfhgkjladgfjadhgjadhgf |
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