Currently Reading Venetia By Georgette Heyer see related

School is in, and you would think my life would be a life of ease.  Possibly in four years or so....

Actually, it was a huge relief to finally send the kids off to school, not because I wanted them out of my hair, but because I ended up feeling almost paralyzed by worry about their adjustment to a new school.  The last week or more, I ended up cycling through worry, realization that I am worrying, prayer, and relief about a thousand times a day.  And with the dread of the worse possible scenario playing out periodically in my head on top of the normal “I’m sending my baby off to kindergarten” stuff, I was pretty much just thankful that the day could finally be put behind us.  And, of course, it went a hundred times better than anything I’d played in my head.  As I kept reassuring myself ahead of time, I bet they’ve learned something about facing those new situations like job interviews, summer jobs, college, etc. which will help them later on in life.

So, I am trying now to adjust to the life of stress from when I hit the floor in the morning until the kids are on the bus to pretty much utter boredom playing Little People, Imaginext, etc. punctuated by brief respites of cleaning to a million kids all over when everyone’s home to the habitual evening stress of dinner and homework and forty million papers to keep tract of.  I’m not sure I’ll be able to handle all the organization required for four kids in school, but maybe by then Abby and Jamie will have mastered it all.

This morning I attended our school’s Moms In Touch prayer group which has eight people!!!  That is astounding coming from my old school’s group of me and one other mom.  I’m excited to be part of something bigger and that I don’t have to plan.  I have to see how the babysitting works out.  They usually have the moms with little ones rotate which means I’d babysit once every two or three times and that doesn’t sound too appealing.