it's funny to me how life works: how you may think you know everything about a person, and in the blink of an eye they're just another stranger you'd be passing on the street. it's funny to me how we take things for granted, and we never realize our mistake until it's too late. it's funny how we go around everyday, wanting this, wanting that, wishing for this, hoping for that, and once we've got everything we've wanted, you lose the one thing that was actually the most important to you, and that you can't live without. i can honestly say that i am one of the many unfortunate people that has now experienced true heartache. i admit that i was one of those many who took everything for granted, and it wasn't until i lost the one person that truly meant the most to me that i realized i'd been living in a fantasy world where everything had to be perfect. nothing was good enough for me in reality, and by living in the past, and not living in the present, i was pushing away the love of my life, the one person i gave everything to. if only there was a time machine that could give us another chance on life ... but i guess that wouldn't be good since we would constantly be traveling back in time trying to make every single thing perfect. now that it's too late, i've realized that, who am i to try controlling my own destiny and path in life. i should've let life take its course and lived everyday like there was no tomorrow. it's hard to wake up every morning knowing that just yesterday life was great, and now you're left with nothing but the built-up tears in your eyes and the memories of when everything seemed perfect. it's hard living on knowing that just yesterday your vision and plan of a joy-filled future seems impossible to now fulfill. it hurts knowing that the one person i pictured myself walking down the aisle with, doesn't even want to be in a relationship with me anymore ... it hurts so bad to know that the one person i just wanna hold in my arms, and run my fingers through his hair, kiss him so passionately our hearts skip a beat ... won't even talk to me. but it hurts the most not even knowing what you did for that special person to not want to be with you anymore, what i did ... if you're out there reading this, just know that i really have come to my senses and i'm sorry for anything i've done to hurt you in the past ... but please remember that i'll always be here, and if you decide to give me a chance, like i gave you before, i know we can make it work ... take things slowly, day by day, one at a time ... i've changed, and i've matured, and i've realized and learned so many things that i didn't know before ... if you have someone out there that you love so much and can't bare to live without, tell them. let them know how much you love and care for them, and how special, and how much they mean to you before it's too late ... when that one day comes where you've finally found yourself and realized what you want in life, i hope i'm there right by your side, looking up at you, our hands fitting so perfectly together, smiling ... and you, smiling back at me, both of us knowing that everything'll be okay. david dean tano, i love you. "... all we can do is keep breathing ..." | 
