"I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been."

So much unfortunate crazy talk. - Zender

Friday- I love st.patricks day. I dont know why but I do. Kat, Jon, Brandon, Levi and Brit came over and we hung out, got pizza (walking uphill) and watched movies.I dont think Brandon was use to how calm we all are. We dont party, we like sitting and talking, those are my friends and thats what we do.

Saturday- Nothing went right. my brother and I went to our grandmothers. Let me recap. she asked when my grad party is I told her june 11 and she continued on to talk about how great it is that georges is june 10th...this was after she very rudely asked if I was graduating this year (after Ive only told her that since the end of last school year)...I swear its like Im talking to nobody. and then she asked where i was going to college. I told her and she continued on with how great it is that george is going there. After that she asked if I still wanted to be a teacher (yeah, not since like 6th grade).  I told her I wanted to go into film and she did the whole disappointed thing. whatever, and she wonders why I dont come over or call (although the door swings both ways she can just as easily pick up a phone). I agree with what Kat told me, family shouldnt have favorites. (Oh and then she told me that my mom might finally have a headstone by next year...its only been three years.....some of my family members I would just like to tell them where they can put some of the things they say) The point was though saturday sucked.

Sunday- Went to the play with Katherine. Talked to Katherines mom for a bit and she said I should relax. (I am getting sick from being so busy all the time. Im not sure if Im going to school yet. I have an earache and two music classes.....bad combination) After talking we went out to eat and then going back to Kats house..we had a little to much fun with my hair and paper clips ...... After the play Levi and I rented a movie and watched it at Dans. Came back home and I fell asleep. Ive been doing that lately because I am so tired all the time...randomly falling asleep.

Today Im hoping to see Brit Durbin. Well see. So yeah thats that.

Side Note:
Stupid coincidences...all of the coincidences Ive ever had have turned out to really upset me....they arent what I thought....

Thats Unfortunate crazy talk

Zender

PS ELLEN DEFRANCE IF YOU READ THIS FREAKING CALL ME OR SOMETHING ITS LIKE YOU FELL OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH I MISS YOU!!!

PANIC! AT THE DISCO LYRICS

"I Write Sins Not Tragedies"

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

OK, so I promised a better post this time. So here it is. Yesterday was soo beautiful, it was sunny and warm, and as I put it everything was right in my world. It was a nice change of pace, slow and relaxed. (work kinda sucked but you'll have that) and this morning I went out to breakfast with Kat, Britt and Jon. Three of the most amazing people and the best friends I could ever have. And Im excited about my St.Patty's day party this Friday...: )   Very small party, but I wouldnt have it any other way. To many people = to many problems. I have to babysit tonight, which will be alright because I like the kids I babysit for and their mom and I are good friends so its cool. But yeah. and yesterday I was thinking of some things that I never posted.

The concert that Levi and I went to a while back was amazing. 3rd time seeing shinedown and I want to go to another one of their concerts, I like them alot. I also have decided I really wish I could go to another MCR concert and maybe a The Used one. Yeah but thats that.

I talked to the mailman the other day. He is the coolest person ever. He was talking to me about college and how I should definitly follow my dreams (bout time I get a little more support now I have like a whole 8 people supporting me) and he tol dme how he thought he was a gypsie in a past life ( coolest frickin thing that Ive heard).

But thats all thats really new.

Thats unfortunate crazy talk

Zender