Monday, March 31, 2008

• So I broke my fast today after loosing 8 lbs- which I was pretty psyched about. I broke this morning with 1 can of progresso beef and veggie soup (200), 5 ginger snaps (150), a bite of pop tart (35). That brings me to a grand total of 395 + a good amount of chocolate. This is my only food for the day. I took 1 adderall so that will help. I took two hoodia pills. I took two alli after eating.
  
  I have new inspiration. Sunday boy #2, the sexy bad ass musician. I dont want to be with him, rather, I want to have the affect on him that he had on me. I have a lot of work to do. It's going to take more than a weekend of fasting.
  But Im confidant success is in my reach. Here is some thinspo of what I think it will take to mesmerize #2.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  **UPDATE**
  
  Im freaking out that what ive eaten today is going to make me fat again. Im going to be fat and everyone is going to stare and thank god that they dont look like me. 2 is going to laugh in my face. 1 will laugh behind my back. none of my cloths are going to fit when i get dressed. my leotard is going to rip. im going to have to wear sweats and never leave the house.

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