Roar!

I told myself that I wouldn't turn this into a "like, this is what I did today" blog, but enough people read this to warrant it, sort of kind of.  Plus, I'd like any feedback about my decision...

On what, you ask?  Because I know you're so curious you would ask this...

I've decided on a university:  Johns Hopkins.  And I plan to major in neuroscience.  Because neuroscience is fun.  Yep.

Yay, I have plans?

RE: Vanish

You know, a couple nights ago, they featured on FOX the 91-year-old man getting beaten by a carjacker.  That's like beating up my great dzia-dzia - I just started bawling.  I do that.  The news just gets to me.  I hate it, but it's like an addiction of sorts. 

I think, though, that you're missing something.  It's not that you're incapable of happiness but that circumstances don't allow you to.  Don't confuse the two - the brain can't live in conflict and you've been given a great deal of conflict.  Ignoring it is only a temporary elixer but if it can sustain you till next year, go for it.  Remember that my door's always open.

And that my bed can be turned into a bunk. 

Wow.

A blog is much harder to maintain than one would expect.

They've given me my books back, but I haven't touched a single one.  Instead, I've lazed around in a lethargic daze wasting my time on nothing.  But that's alright, it's a nice break from what I had before.

Did anyone watch the Nightline debate on religion last night?  I was so disappointed - the atheists looked like they were going to a party.  I mean, at least look professional.  But the girl had this super-low-cut dress and huge-ass tits that squished out of it and the guy wore this crappy under-shirt with a whatever decal.  It was lame. 

It's funny, though, how the Christians argued that because the evolutionists did not have a good means to the explanation of the universe and of creation, that means that the existence of God must be valid.  They also said that a painting has a painter, so a creation (us) has a creator (God.)  ...But then who or what created God?  The other side brought up that point, but every time they talked, I cringed.  They weren't very good public speakers and looked like just the run-of-the-mill atheist goths who don't believe in God just because they're parents did and they're still rebelling.

What both of them fail to see is that there are things in this life which we don't understand, which we can't understand.  Attributing them to an intellectual being is just as silly as saying that it couldn't possibly.  We just don't know.

Frankly, I'm more leaning in the direction of there not being a sentient over-seer.  Do I have any logical or scientific evidence to back that up?  Nope - I have just about as much as people of other religions do.

Stream of Consciousness

It's interesting how I can spew the same bullshit and yet when others do it, it's worse.  Do you get what I mean?  It's like reading through all the garbage, and my first reaction is to down-grade what they said.  Yeah, superiority complex, but more than that.  Like something I want to avoid.  As if when someone else says it, it makes more sense and it makes it real and it makes it here.  Don't want to accept it? 

And what happens when, in the middle of my studying, I all of a sudden go "Why?"

Hmmm?

I don't obsess, I take interest until I know and feel everything that there is to know and feel about that particular subject.  Someone, please take me away and let me be shallow - give me a life so that I can ignore the lives of others.  Jesus.

Still trying to decide whether or not I'll be sending the letter to the Willian and Mary Univerity's president telling him that I won't be attending his university because of the taking-down-the-cross stunt.  But rest assured, if I do it, I'll be asking several other seniors to do the same.  He could only turn up one letter saying that the student wouldn't be going to the university because of the cross - so let's give him a hundred saying they won't be going to the university because of his stupidity. 

...And I wonder if telling him I'm atheist will pack more of a punch than just leaving that out. 

Our water heater broke on Saturday.  It's amazing when these little things break - the AC, the oven, the water heater - and you have to live without them for a while.  Forces you to open your brain and empathize with people who don't have what we do.  Unfortunately, some people (and I'm tempted to say most) won't even do that.  But we finally got a new one yesterday, after a whole bunch of chasing of tails.  I took a long, hot shower.