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I let her go like paper airplanes...

3 mile hike...and ramen noodle soup:(

oh well.

nature is so surreal. it makes you realize things, even if you dont wish to even see them.

 this hike i went on today, made me realize life is like a various pathway...like trails in a mountain or mountain range. except there is one difference...the trails of a mountain are marked. in life, you start out innocent, 0.0 miles. as you walk on, youve got your choices...a)stay on the path you started with b)go in a different direction c)take a break and rest d) end your hike and go on home. curiousity and adventure send us in sometimes bad paths making us feel as if we should just stick to the straight and narrow. bur other times, we have a blast...jumping through creeks, chasing the deer, listening to the bird calls. we also get weary, stressed out, but if we have enough sense in our head, we just chill and hang out. then, sometimes, the burdens are overwhelming.  we give in and end what is supposed to be this great journey. take it for what you want, my dearest.

my body doesnt allow me to eat over 500 cals in a day without getting rid of it(involuntary throwing up/usage of restroom). ana causes a lot of deprivation for me. yesterday was my 10 month anniversary of not cutting/slitting my wrists, so i should be happy, but with all the shit that happens in my life, which isnt as bad as some people, i am yet ever so tempted to go back again. any advice is appreciated love.