Currently Reading Pride and Prejudice By Jane Austen see related

The Faith You've Found I've NEVER Felt.</5

Its true what they say.

You sure cant have your cake and eat it too.

I dont even see how Im holding up.  I suppose Im just being the little soldier everyone has always wanted me to be. I keep my chin up. I place a fake smile and paint a pretty picture with my face. It almost makes me want to go back to that old layout i had but I couldnt find it, you girls probably remember the one that said "I hate when people ask me if Im okay; Its just another reminder that Im not." Thats really holding true nowadays. I was always told not to cry, it makes you stronger. Just grin and bear it. What do you do when the grin wont reappear? I am just in such a state of despair. I just need to cry. I need to vent. I want to cut. But I cant, because thatd be letting everyone who knows about it down. Alls I ask is, if I do, please dont be angered with me.I just want to break.

In other words, I changed my song. I can only wish I could be someones Konstantine.

My plan is alright today.

I mostly stuck with it.

If I do cut, like I said Im sorry, but at least no one could catch me. Parents are at a Braves game.

19 days, But tomorrow holds no promise.