I have changed, indeed I have...slowly...too slowly that I couldn't even notice 

I'm not sure if i'm comfortable being wt i'm like now...but in this 'me' i survive, i blend into the others in my surrounding. This 'me', however, would not be as desirable for many others...sometimes it's rather difficult to find a balance...I'm tired of switching faces...I wonder how much longer I can do this for...(or have I ever successfully managed to do that?) I fear that I'll not be liked any more by the ones whom I've always loved, for I'm no longer like who they knew...I've tried my best to fit into every environment...I thought i did it pretty well...but perhaps not. perhaps one day, i'll juz completely drown into one of the 'me-s' and be like that forever.

hai* i guess many of my friends studying overseas will hv felt the same...but most of them chose to stay as they were in hk, ignore the new environment, and be the one they've always been...but i dun think i'd like that either

aiya* perhaps it's too much of Cat's Eye today...better shush