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| Becoming an angry person...So recently, I've felt rather overwhelmed by a lot of things around me. Some are in my control and are just out of my control. The latter part I try not care too much. But I also felt that lately I also feel that I've become more and more angry. So many things tick me off, but often times I catch myself being unhappy and then immediately realising that there was no point in being upset by what just happened. I have a few reasons that I think are why I'm unhappy, some I can accept, some I can't. The other day I was at work. I wasn't too busy, and work was moving along just fine. But throughout the day I just felt like I wanted to get the hell out of the place. I don't know why, but I couldn't stand being there at all. I was dying to get out. And when I finally left, I was impatient the whole drive back home. There was no traffic jam, no one was driving particularly slow, but the whole time I was just thinking to the people in front of me, "get the hell out of my way." These few days too, when I was on the phone with a close friend of mine, I was impatient on the phone, and I was cutting her off more often than I would. Seriously, I feel like I'm just getting angrier and angrier, that something is just building up inside of me, but I don't know what it is, and I don't know how to relieve it.
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| Thoughts about Valentine's Day at 3am in the morningoh jesus fucking christ, it was valentine's day. I can't even imagine how this day came about, but whatever, I find it funny to see all the different things that appear on this day; good or bad. There are people selling chocolate roses, giving free hugs, there's pda peppered around campus, and of course the blank faces of those who spend this day like any other day. So apparently, this is the one day that you're supposed to express your utmost love for that special someone, because any other day, it's just not necessary. What? Anyway, I'm not gonna go bitching about this day, nor glorify it neither. And frankly, you guessed it, it's none of your effing business  I always find it kind of hard to describe this day. Because it's not exactly like Christmas, but all the talk about it starts at the beginning of the year. There's also the whole gift giving thing going on except the responsibility is reserved for the masculine gender. Massive amounts of sweets are consumed, too, though predominantly chocolate. So in a way, it is almost like Christmas right? Minus the whole sale thing that goes on. But there's kind of a similarity. Now February 14th seems kind of arbitrary, so then given their similarities you'd think placing Valentine's day on something like June 25th would make more sense; sort of like a 'quasi-Christmas' type thing. Meh well, this is just a thought, silly or whatnot. It's 3 am in the morning anyway. | | |
| New semester, and also my last semester at Cal. Gonna need to look for a job. I'm already getting chills thinking about it. Hopefully I'll be able to pull through this semester without a nervous break down, lol
Been trying to work on setting up a server using Linux for doing some web stuff. I definitely need those skills for any of the jobs I'm hoping to get. Will have to balance this stuff with the maths courses I have 
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| So this week has been all over the place for me. The weekdays were just hectic with midterm, work and homework. I was lucky enough that one of my professors postponed the homework since he hadn't lectured on the topic yet. Then I was also able to get the book I needed to study for my history midterm when I got back from work, whoever borrowed it from the library decided not to hold it overnight I suppose.
This weekend was a much needed break. My roommate brought me to see a Korean Traditional dance show performed by the 27th National Treasure of Korea. I really enjoyed it since I've hardly ever had the opportunity to see any Korean cultural performances before. Now I just have to do my homework and get enough done so that I can actually discuss the stuff with my GSI. Now to continue studying.
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| Recently got the ending theme to the new season of Naruto (yes, fine,
laugh at me, I watch Naruto even though I've told myself to stop doing
that since god knows when) Anyway, I really liked it, the sound was
good, the lyrics were good, and the violin in it was just fantastic.
The song is call "Michi (道) ~ To You All" by a Japanese duo called
Aluto. Will look into their other songs, and hopefully it'll be good.
Here's a link on youtube that for you all to check it out if interested.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdOjGkm8rnU
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