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| So I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think. Everytime I try to tell myself "we're just friends" and "we'll just hangout and have fun" But as soon as I see her, thats all shot to hell. All the feelings come flooding back to me and I start to feel exactly as I always have. I can't help it... it just happens. And I know that I should just move on but her smile and her laugh and the fun we have together tells me otherwise. And I know that I shouldn't tell her these things because it just confuses her more. I know that I shouldn't do certain things but that doesn't matter... its whats in the heart that counts. Thats all for now... just had to get that out. | | |
| so once again doug martin plays everything pefectly. I do all the things i'm supposed to, say all the things i'm supposed to say. I try and make her feel happy and loved. I make perfect, and I mean perfect reads. Then I make one small mistake and BOOM, everything is over. I really don't now how I could of played that any better. But hey thats life. | | |
| Its amazing the difference a year or so can make. You used to tell me everything. I'd hear about your track meets and your family like. You'd tell me about boys and classes. We wrote each other notes everyday and usually talked on the phone at night. You called me 'precious' and i called you 'dear'. It was great, we were best friends. But time and distance have taken theit tolls. We haven't had a real conversation in over a week. I can't remember the last time we talked on the phone for longer than 5 minutes. And I know something is bothering you like no other but you leave me guessing.
But I thought about something... I'm doing everything I can. I'm playing it right. So I can only do my best and thats what i've been doing. And if you don't wanna talk to me, I can't make you. But I'm not mad at you... I'm really not, I just don't like this situation. But I'm here for you if you need me.
Bye Dear | | |
| Well I see where I rank on your priority list. I see that our plans mean nothing to you. You think I can be blown off or pushed to a later day. Well maybe I can and maybe I can't but the last few days I've been happy and the strange thing is, its not because of you.
Well i probably just got myself in a lot of trouble but, hey, I gotta speak my mind right? Off to bed and then NC for a week. See ya later. | | |
| What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make to see that I'm alive
Is I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait...I already am)
Its amazing how he can make me invisible to her, but i guess thats what its all about. Off to bed, at least i can think of her, even if shes not thinking of me. | | |
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