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Name: Marcos
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 2/20/1987
Gender: Male


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Expertise: Yeah... I pretty much suck at everything... but Ive learned to live with it


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Member Since: 3/3/2004

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

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I Turn to You [US CD/12"]
By Melanie C
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- I turn to you...

Everyone has words or something to believe in.. something to dream about... well, these are mine. This is what I beleive in.. and what I truly wish to see become reality.

                                   Nothing is Random

Nothing is random, nor will anything ever be, whether a long string of perfectly blue days that begin and end in golden dimness, the most seemingly chaotic political acts, the rise of a great city, the crystalline structure of a gem that has never seen the light, the distributions of fortune, what time the milkman gets up, the position of the electron, or the occurrence of one astonishingly frigid winter after another.

Even electrons, supposedly the paragons of unpredictability, are tame and obsequious little creatures that rush around at the speed of light, going precisely where they are supposed to go. They make faint whistling sounds that when apprehended in varying combinations are as pleasant as the wind flying through a forest, and they do exactly as they are told. Of this, one can be certain.

And yet there is a wonderful anarchy, in that the milkman chooses when to arise, the rat picks the tunnel into which he will dive when the subway comes rushing down the track from Borough Hall, and the snowflake will fall as it will. How can this be? If nothing is random, and everything is predetermined, how can there be free will? The answer to that is simple.

Nothing is predetermined; it is determined, or was determined, or will be determined. No matter, it all happened at once, in less than an instant, and time was invented because we cannot comprehend in one glance the enormous and detailed canvas that we have been given - so we track it, in linear fashion, piece by piece. Time, however, can be easily overcome; not by chasing light, but by standing back far enough to see it all at once.

The universe is still and complete. Everything that ever was, is; everything that ever will be, is - and so on, in all possible combinations. Though in perceiving it we imagine that it is in motion, and unfinished, it is quite finished and quite astonishingly beautiful.

In the end, or rather, as things really are, any event, no matter how small, is intimately and sensibly tied to all others. All rivers run full to the sea; those who are apart are brought together; the lost ones are redeemed; the dead come back to life; the perfectly blue days that have begun and ended in golden dimness continue, immobile and accessible; and, when all is perceived in such a way as to obviate time, justice becomes apparent not as something that will be, but as something that is.

Excerpt from A book... By Mark Helprin.


Friday, January 07, 2005

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Audio Injected Soul
By Mnemic
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Yeah, I know that I said that was my last post... but again... Im really bored in my class... this shit always happens to me in school... but seriously... im bored out of my mind. I dont know what to do... and just in case your wondering where ive been... and what ive been doing... ABSOLUTLY NOTHING!!! Except working... lol... GREAT AMERICAN bAbY!!! Oh shit.... speaking of that... I have to work today... ... but its alright... cuz I LIkE ME carro!!! aLRIGHT THEN.... Peace!!


Wednesday, April 28, 2004

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Falling into You
By Celine Dion
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This is to let everyone know that this is my last post on Xanga... or pretty much my last post on everything else I have....

As for the reason... well, its really hard to explain... I write in this to let myself vent on events that happen in my life and how I feel.... the problem with that, is that I keep on looking back, and remembering how i felt on certain days and what not and Ive come to realize that I do that a little too often to keep myself happy. Remembering the past is fun... if youve had  fun past... I havent (if you havent read)...

Ive decided to let my past rest with this.... thanks to everyone who read this... and gave me Eprops... Peace to everyone... wish me luck...


Friday, April 23, 2004

you are the "you're so dumb" happy bunny. you are brutal in your words and enjoy putting others down.


I dont wanna be here, but then again, I dont think anyone else in here does either. I keep on flashing back.... and with each flash, comes another detail of the story I somehow forgot. Its like going back in time to another place..another reality. Every time i close my eyes, I see it. Every detail, every sound, voice, every scent. I hate it... but at the same time, I think without it, I would loose it and... I dunno.. kill someone. Fuck, I balled out crying two nights ago, cuz i couldnt take it anymore... I hate feeling like this. I know Im suppose to be happy for the things I have, or have had.... but fuck, why cant I keep the things I want. I had finally found a balance in my life, a way to keep myself from going insane and killing myself. But for one reason or another, i know my whole world is coming to what seems like the end, and theres nothing I can do about it. I dont wanna cry again, but i know deep down inside... as the end of the school year comes... the reality of it all, is going to hit me... and im gonna break down, hardcore. I dont know what to do, I feel like im falling, and Im about to hit... hard.



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