Tuesday, May 13, 2008

• Final Goodbyes

  Today is may 13th-- Tuesday-- this is the day I have come to dread...it is the day my best friends fly off to
  Switzerland to start their new chapter as Swiss citizens.  My heart aches with the loss of my friend today.  I cannot even bring myself to call her one last time, I don't trust my voice not to crack and be filled with sad tears, I don't want her to leave hearing that in my voice.  We said our Goodbyes already last Thursday and I am going to leave it at that.

                                                      

  This has been the year for me to loose several close and dear friends.  We lost another great friend when he died last August, but we just learned about it around the holidays and it hit us like a ton a bricks...in these past few months we lost one to cancer, one to a car accident, and two in a divorce.  We have three more riding on the edge of the precipice of Cancer and their time will be coming soon as well...

  I hate that this sounds so sad and dreary, I just have to get my thoughts out on all of this and since it is the day that my dear friends rides off into her sunset, it just makes it all so fresh and right at the surface.

  When we were kids we always heard of the old people dying, friends of our parents, realitives, loved ones...seemed that it would be such a long time away before we would be dealing with all of that loss...we were just kids with the future stretched way ahead for us!  We couldn't even imagine the day that we would even be as old as our parents were! 

  Well...that day has come for me.  I never really imagined that I would get to that day, it just "happened"....I am here, I have arrived.  My time has come to start saying my "Goodbyes" to many along the way.  Accept that my parents are aging, my friends are coming and going, in and out of life one way or another, and I too will one day, sooner than I think as time flys by so quickly....WOW!  What a downer this blog is.  I am not going to delete it though, instead I will just close my eyes, say a prayer of Thanksgiving for all I have been given, open my eyes and continue through my day, my week, my month, my years with a smile on my face knowing that loss is one of the most natural parts of living. 

  I CAN do THIS....

  "Hello' to the rest of my day.....

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