Currently Listening Almost Here By The Academy Is... see related

i need to get to the bookstore + study, but its just not the same without my ipod.  i hate the quiet. i loose my nerves in silence. i need music. loud music or some sweet cacaphony like being at a concert. i like to be surrounded by people i dont know.... people i dont know being loud. i like that being lost in a crowd feeling. because they dont notice me. i love noise.

i find such peace in that.

Currently Listening Hellogoodbye By Hellogoodbye see related

i love everyone...... but everyone is fake. but i still love everyone.

Currently Listening Art Damage By Fear Before the March of Flames see related

i had a pretty entertaining week. =) got a pretty decent grade on my a.g. exam. kanye west concert..... and howl-o-scream with the ladies..... everyone's freaking birthday is coming up. gotta buy my tix to all american rejects....... and here are the pictures.....

fantasia

kanye west



me and kate hatching from the egg





funnest non-ride ever!!



us girls with bones

nihaya and her hump

when we first got to busch gardens

on the way back to the parking lot

Currently Listening Built by Blood By Bleed the Dream see related

"Don't FUCK with the people who handle your food."

as a representative for servers of america... i say that is well said. well said...

i went to see Waiting  last night. very cute movie i might add.... but only those who serve + work in the restaurant industry would appreciate it. I was hoping that there would be more obnoxious customers... double seating. undertippers....and all the problems that us servers have to run into everyday. those who do not work in restaurant dont have any clue how hard serving can be sometimes.

here are some facts for you customers...... must read or die!!!!!!

• please be aware that you are not just tipping your server... you are tipping out the busboy + food runner + bartender as well, so only half of the tip you leave actually goes to the server.
• $2.00 tip on $60.... you can go fuck yourself. learn to calculate idiot.  learn the correct tip ----> 15% or 20% + more if the service is good.  
• here is a hint..... take the tax (usually located before the total).......multiply by two and throw in an extra dollar or two.
• how would you feel if you were shorted on your pay???
• you are not the only customer that we have. we usually have 4 or 5 other tables. if you are not the queen of england, get over yourself.
• don't go about screaming our name when we are serving another customer. it is rude + obnoxious. and again, if you are not the queen of england... that shut your ass up +  please be patient. PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE.
• don't make me hover over your table for 1,000 years while you take your precious time to figure out whether or not you want a glass of water or a glass of water.
• if your child is screaming for dear life. shut that child up. u arent the only people trying to enjoy fine dining.
• dont ask for a medium rare steak if what you really want is well done.
• and last but not least, if you had a bad experience + don't like our food, please don't come again bitch. dont waste your time and ours. thx.

and NO... we really do not spit in peoples food. or scratch dandruff onto steaks to give extra flavoring..... well at least we dont at quakersteak&lube. we are rather clean + strict about things like that. but who knows about other restaurants. haha.

Currently Listening Walking With a Ghost By Tegan & Sara see related

i know bravery is a choice.
i want to be fearless when it comes to something outside of my frame of reference.
"You must always be curious". - Walt Whitman

don't compromise yourself. free yourself.
------>stay on your own star
lie down under a night sky and listen to what falls silent behind.
feel it all the way through...the weak. the strong. the real.
growing up is like this. living is like this.
the bad part isnt bad. its just part of it. it gets you there.
the euphoria + the ache
the confusion + the question.
the wondering.
the understanding.
the letting go.
the young + the brave.
these are the days that must happen to me. this i believe. Contradictions
---->embrace them.
--------->laugh with them.
i am learning that... im not going to have it all together. look how i wanna look. feel how i wanna feel. do what i should be doing.

right now is it because right now is really it. [am i making any sense?]

i dont know what will come next------>how it will come. i know it never works out how i think it will. looking back.. it always has worked out how it should. remember this as we go on our way. what i really want to say to myself is "It is Alright."
this mess right here.

my high school art teacher used to say "in its own flawed way, its all secretly perfect."

im not running. we all suffer. there will always be understanding. this is what i know to be true.------>sooner than you think and later than you expected.

i have learned that more is never enough + growing is a mixure of surrendering to that... none of it matters + all of it matters. what we stand up for and what we let go of. this is the real stuff.

 i am realizing that i am enough as is------------------> a work in progress. accepting myself brings me away from analyzing. doubting. comparing. altering how i am. who i am.

it is important to share and necessary to live as tangled + true as it is.

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