got super drunk last night...cuz the red wine affect... and…

got super drunk last night...cuz the red wine affect... and i know that i made he worry about me so much last night and he got super angry at me today...i am so sorry about that...i didn't mean to get drunk...but sometime just don't know how to control myself..and that is Elina...elina never know how to control herself..that's why i need my hun to guide me..and give me the movtivation to change...i am starting to learn and trying to do my best as a gf... when i saw him today...he looked so sad...and angry...i knew that he tried not to blame me....but just held his emotion.. i felt so heartache when seeing him like that.......cuz i do care about his feeling....but i don't know if he can feel it or not...i think i am falling into this relationship too deep...well...no more space for myself...i am like a blank paper in front of him..don't know why i want him to know everything about me...cuz don't want to hide anything from him...