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FallenEmoAngel
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Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 12/14/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Music, Writing, Acoustic Guitar, Going to Rawk Shows, Skateboarding, Hanging Out, Getting Online.
{Aim sn: TraptInsideOfMe}
Expertise: Acoustic Guitar, Writing... Music.
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Member Since:
4/30/2003
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::Entry 83::
Alright I'm back... I will be posting on here a little bit... So today I had work... yeh, it was alright I guess. I bought a CD afterwards, which made it all the better... My back is in a lot of pain, and so am I ... I am now on meds... Yeh... It sucks... I'm not Kate anymore... I'm the Kate on meds... my life is going downhill... Goodnight...
-Cweet Katastrophe- | | |
| ::Entry 82::
I hope everyone had a good July 4th... mine was okay...
I'm really missing him, and he's all that's ever on my mind anymore.. He doesn't seem to care.
My new journal:
http://www.livejournal.com/~damagedvacancy
So yeh... talk to you all later... I probably won't be posting on here for a while.. Now that I have live journal. I'll talk to you in the near future... love you.
Love,
-Cweet Katastrophe {Trapt Kate}- | | |
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::Entry 81::
As I sit here all alone, thinking the opposite of what you're thinking, saying the opposite of what you're saying, doing the opposite of what you're doing, your damaged words make me hit the floor, and the rain outside blends my tears with my blood, and the day drowned in my sorrow. My thoughts shot through the sky, sending them empty, helpless signals of my feelings, and unexposed glory to fall, glory to hurt, glory to cry, glory to bleed, and glory to bruise. The black darkness encases my lonliness and I'm not breathing anymore. They cut me off. My signals worked. Can't they finish it? End it! Don't leave me suffer another minute of your torture. If you want me, take me. If you hit me, make it hurt. Leave a mark. I know what you're thinking. You want me gone. You want what they want. They've made me suffer, and now I'm here to make them cry. Cry sweet little badger, cry your worst. Don't think too hard, you might cause harm to your beautiful self. Hold on for your empty soul and live you life as if it were your last...
-Cweet Katastrophe | | |
| ::Entry 80::
Alright... So maybe going to the mall didn't work just now... I'm back home. My sis and I left at 1o:oo to try and go, and then we started to skid 'cos of all the rain, so we just turned around and came home. She was like "Yeh, we'll try going later." That's alright. I'm still upset... This mood is over taking me, and I can't help myself anymore... I am HeLpLeSs.
I keep seeing all these things that people write like "Blah and Blah forever." They put their name, and the person they are in love with next to it. I wish I could do that. It's just...
"Kate and No one."
No one... forever. It's always like that. It will probably always be like that. People can always find someone better than me... But then when something good happens to me, something bad comes with it. ReGrEt...ReGrEt...ReGrEt.
FoRgEt Me.
- L o n e l y M i r a c l e - | | |
| ::Entry 79::
It's morning...
I'm tired... and still upset. I don't think I'll ever be happy again. Last night I didn't cry myself to sleep. I was talking to Phil online before I went to bed, and he was making me happy, but some of the stuff he said made me cry, but yeh... heh. Phil's a great buddy.
Bleh... What to do today?! I have to get Laura a gift, go to my counselor, go to laura's, hang with jenn, DDR. Yeh... DDR is my whole day now. I mean, it's a good way to lose weight, but yeh... after a while, of hearing the same songs over and over... AH ::Kills it::
So yeh... I'm really bored, and really tired. I really have nothing to say. I just want Jenn to come to North Carolina with me... My dad has kept moving the date, because of this big Florida trip that her parents scheduled for a whole god damn month without telling her, and it's been screwing everything up. I don't know... I just can't go down there by myself.
Well... I'm going to go for now.. I'll be back later.
-Cweet Katastrophe- | | |
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