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::Entry 75:: Hi everyone... So yeh, I just got back from work. Last night I talked to Laura, and she isn't mad at me for not coming to her party. She said she'd rather hang out with me on her real birthda…
::Entry 74:: "As I leave here today, apartment 108, I'll always keep you in my heart. Anderson is cold tonight, The leaves are scattered on the ground. I miss the seasons, And the comfort of your smile. Sometimes thi…
::Entry 73:: Let me live a lie, and say that today was alright...
::Entry 72:: Blah... What a day. I played ddr and swam all day. I had a guitar lesson then had some crap to do. I missed Laura's surprised birthday party, and I hope she doesn't hate me now... ::sigh:: Around 9:3o …
::Entry 71:: I started to write my book... I'm excited ^_^ Yet, I'm >>confused<< on what's going on with Justin... uh... o_O... Oh well... I don't understand much anymore. ::Sudden outburst:: MESH HAT! So …
::Entry 70:: Hey, I'm home... Woo, long day of work. I went in, started at 9:30 and finished at 5. Wow, and I am tired. Yeh, I'm quite upset... and quite bored. It's too hott here... I want to go somewhere awesome, …
::Entry 69:: "Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens, A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins. I wil never ask if you don't ever tell me, I know you well enough to know you never loved me. Hoping for…
::Entry 68:: There's... something wrong... in this thing they call "life"...
::Entry 67:: "Do we know how to get the message across? We turn the lights off to find a way out. It's hard to get through to grasp what was lost, Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark. Hey, I'm pleading,…
::Entry 66:: Dude, so I got my haircut today! It rawks!! \m/. I love ya Justin!!! You're so fucking great and awesome, and adorable and yeh... you rawk baby! Alrighty, so now that THAT's outta my system. haha! I got…
::Entry 65:: YOU ME name: {Kate} sex: Girl... age: Four~teen birthday: December 14 place of birth: A Hospital? siblings: Sister Morgan. star sign: Sagittarius {Duh, I said I was born in december!} height: 5'1" hair c…
::Entry 64:: Do they love me?...
::Entry 63:: I wish I was beautiful, To catch your wandering eyes. I wish I was the girl that drives you crazy, To keep a smile on your face. I wish I was Pretty... The only thing I'm pretty in is blood. I wish I was …
::Entry 62:: >< >< >< >< >< "Lost" Last night I dreamt that you were here. I looked into your eyes which were ever so clear. Things were the same as they would before. You had to stay as I…
::Entry 61:: Wtf?! Everything was fine... then something kicked in. I was talking to this boi about how he likes my best friend so much *blah blah* then he was like "you don't understand Kate, girls drive guys crazy.…
::Entry 60:: Dudes, I'm back! Today was my first day of work! Dude it was a lot, but it rawked! Okay, so I'm all right now... I mean, my parents were total fuck ups and bastards the other days, but yeh... whatever... …
::Entry 59:: ~HoT sUmMeR sUn...~ ~EMOTIONS~ Emotion you hide most: Happiness... and I'm rarely happy. The emotion you tend to experience most: Depression/sadness. The emotion you are feeling most lately: Depression... I…
::Entry 58:: ~I wAnT tO gIvE yOu BaCk...~ Just some more lines that I wrote... >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< My life is a panic attack, waiting to be calmed. >&l…
::Entry 57:: ~I aM nOt...~ Hey... I haven't updated in a while. On Wednesday Laura came home with me and we hung out... aw we had a fun time. So anyway, yeh, we've been having thunderstorms here... I'm glad it's over.…
::Entry 56:: ~TaKe It SlOw...~ Gosh!! Fuck Life... I am having the worst night and just want to cut at my outside, rot in my room, and end as a beautiful corpse... I want people to fucking realize that I'm alive... no o…
::Entry 54:: ~I'vE lOsT a TrAcE...~ "Give You Back" ~ Vertical Horizon. "I need to know if you were real, 'Cos I've been known to get it wrong. When the memory comes, I'll say I'm always in the dark, You got me now. I…
>< >< >< >< >< >< >< ::Entry 53:: ~It'S nOt QuItE wHaT i'M lOoKiNg FoR...~ >Just some little lines here and there... >< >< >< >< ><…
::Entry 52:: ~BuT i DoN't WaNt To HeAr FoOtStEpS mOmMy...~ So Laura just left (10:32p.m) yeh... first off it was Jenn Lauren and I hanging out and playing DDR... then jenn left and it was lauren and I... Alisha came o…
::Entry 51:: ~AnD wiLL yOu TeLL aLL yOuR fRiEnDs...~ Well.... I just got back from the movies with my mom... and I'm really worried about... well... something... >Kate did a bad... STOP IT ::smack::< Today was r…
::Entry 50:: ~DaMn CoLd NiGhT...~ ~I just got back from my counselor... Yeh, we like... totally had the best conversation... I totally just cried to her... It was actually good.... But yeh, then afterwards I went ou…
::Entry 49:: ~LoNLiNeSs Is HaPpInEsS...~ [ Current Clothes ] Red board shorts, blue semi-tight t shirt, HAPPY BUNNY HOODIE!!! [ Current Mood ] Sick of shit hole school... Quite down in the dumps... bummed out. [ Curre…
::Entry 48:: ~DoN't ThInK yOuRe EmO wHeN yOu ShOw nO sIgN...~ Today was just... today... same as everyday... shitty, because I hate the place I am at. I wrote Tyler a note, telling him what was going on with me, sinc…
I eNvY yOuR hApPiNeSs...
::Entry 46:: ~CuTtInG bAd...~ Yeh... today was really... odd... yet again. I worked on my song book, notebook thing... I found this card and glued it in there... stared at it and cried soooo much... ::screams:: I mi…
::Entry 45:: ~ThE eNd...~ A poem I wrote called "The End." "It's the end, all my bloody bandages are thrown away. But your face is still in my mind. My scars are history. History of how much I miss you. I'm trap…
::Entry 44:: ~YoU'rE a GoD, aNd I aM nOt...~ Gosh... Today has been shitty... I mean... Why can't I stop crying?! It's like... crying is my profession. Tyler... Thankyou so much... I'm sorry for everything...…
::Entry 43:: ~AsKiNg WhY...~ I've been searching, and can't find a reason. I've been crying ever since... and listening to music... thinking about it. Gosh, I hate myself... I'm pointless. I just got back from the…
::Entry 42:: ~I fOuNd A lInE, aNd ThEn It GrEw...~ ::Sigh:: ...Life is becoming more and more pointless... It's just a bore... and nothing is ever to do except... well... nvm... there is nothing to do... and when you …