Friday, May 11, 2007

• The more I walk around these streets
  The more they all look this way
  Crooked situations on a different day
  How'd I survive? With friends by my side.
  
  I want to be alone, but I hate being alone.
  
  I mean, it's nice to be alone, but living alone and having to be alone the entire time? It sucks. On the other hand, I believe I'm a pretty crappy roommate, so I should be alone. I used to be retardedly clean. Probably verging on OCD. Then I had a filthy roommate or 2 (or 5... or 6...), and I slowly stopped doing all the cleaning. I did my half of it, and the other went undone. I got used to things being dirty. Then I had a roommate who did all the cleaning in exchange for less rent and I got completely out of the habit of cleaning. Now I'm trying to get back into it, but the place is kind of gross. Not as gross as it was a while ago. I'm not going to mention who that roommate was, but I would put on my shoes to go into the bathroom to piss. I don't have to do that now, because I can hit the water in the toilet. It must suck to not have that ability. Well, sucks for anyone living with a person who doesn't posess it, rather.
  
  So, I lost my train of thought. Oh yeah.
  
  I don't want to live alone anymore. It sucks to pay all the rent, and it sucks to cook for myself. Then again, no one else would eat top ramen and mac & cheese daily like I end up doing. If I could somehow get a large house with a handful of roommates, I think it'd kick ass to cook dinner, a dinner of real food, and I'd do it on a nearly daily basis if everyone took responsibility for some other chore. You know, even if it was a group of friends next door to each other even. Like on Friends. I've never known the people I live around, other than what they look like really. Kind of sucks. It's probably my fault, but people don't seem to be all that friendly. I was about to say anymore but I'm not sure people were ever that friendly.
  
  I'm pretty sure I'm just rambling.
  
  I'm so freaking bored. I don't feel like studying for my Econ final. I will, but I don't want to right now. I want to do something with someone. Even if it was just watch a movie. Something. Damn I'm bored. Everyone I know has a life, or a family, or both. I hate calling people because I think:
  

  • They would have called me if they wanted to do something
  • They are busy
  • They're doing family things
  • They don't want to hang around me as much as I would hang around them

  I'm sure that makes no sense, and is stupid, and probably a few other things, but that's what goes through my mind as I sit here.
  
  Bleh.
  
  I'm so bored I went through my subscriiptions list and removed a few people from it who haven't seemed to update for 2 years or more. There's still some people on there who fall under that category, but they're people who I sort of connected with, and I'd like to meet in person. They are obviously gone, people don't tend to come back to Xanga after a 2 year break, but you never know. Feels so final when I unsuibscribe from someone who's gone, you know? Anyway, over the next few days I'm going to clean it up a bit more to make room for new people to be added.
  
  Why? Because I have this horrible habit, once I get back into the groove, of feeling the need to go to every site on my list, and I only have so much time. If I subscribed to everyone who subscribed to me, I'd be on here longer than I can afford to be on the internet.
  
  Yes, indeed, I am rambling. I think I'll go... do dishes or something equally fun. Have a good weekend.
  
  EDIT: Been working on this site, going to try and update it regularly. Also, I'll be working on the dumb comic one as well. I'll let you all know when I have an update for it.
  
  Currently Drinking:
  Pepsi Lime
  Yum
  

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