Tuesday, May 13, 2008

• Last night I was watching a T.V show called, "INTERVENTION," and it was an episode about two identical twin girls, and one of the twins had anorexia.  This girl was so THIN!!!  She was 5'8" and 95lbs.  She looked like a skeleton, it was aweful!  I found this episode scary but true, a little triggering but interesting.  I think watching this show made me think twice about what I am doing to myself, and how I don't want to go back down the road to the E.D.  I don't want to get as bad as I was.  I remember when I was 85 pounds, and was scared to go to sleep at night, everynight because I was scared I would die in my sleep, that my body would just shut down completely.  I don't want to be like that again.

  Also, after seeing this show, it made me realize that I am stronger than the E.D, and that I have control of it right now, otherwise I would've been 85pounds by now if I really wanted to listen to the E.D.  Everytime I think about being 85 pounds again, the first thought that pops in my head is my bones.  I already have Osteoporosis, but because I am young I can stop it from getting worse.  When I feel like losing so much weight, I think to myself, "I can't lose a ton of weight anymore because if I do my bones will just get worse, and If I stop eating completely I will lose all the fat, but after losing all the fat from my body, my body will start sucking away my muscles, and I don't want that to happen because I don't want to be a hunch back at age 20.  So, I need to eat healthy everyday for me, my health, and my bones.

  Overall, I thought the show was a learning experience.  I really got alot out of it.  Has anyone else seen the show INTERVENTION, and the episode with the twin girls, and one of them has an E.D?

  Much Love To All- Kari XoXoXo

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