DAMMMNNN, sorry for not updating. but its summer now. and i'm up. soo i guess i'll update :]

sometimes you gotta put up walls, not to keep people out but
to see who cares enough to knock them down.

take every chance you get. because honestly no matter where you end up, or who you end up with, it always ends up the way it should be. your mistakes are what makes you the person you are today. you learn and grow with each choice. make everything you do worth it. life you life as if there's no tomorrow. say how you feel, always be you and be okay with it.

don't waste time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. try not to risk it all. don't stumble, don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the walls. hold your head high, don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true and be you. do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest and never look back. there is a reason for the future and a reason for the past. love till you die. and when your life flashes before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome, and most of all, be proud of what you've become.

if you're going to pressure me to do something, i'm going to do the opposite.
so if you tell me to get skinny, i'll probably get fat just to piss you off.

hey skank,
just because you start the shit.
doesn't mean you are the shit.

he said he's sorry. and with one finger, i said fuck that.

i live for summers where my toes don't go a day without touching the sand. the weeks that are spent under the sun & moon with friends. i live for the days when my cheeks hurt too much from smiling. i live for the hours i feel alive. the minutes that make up my favorite song. the seconds that make up that one first summer kiss. i live for the moments that take my breath away.

i was born to be stubborn, to be a little bitchy, to push people & push myself. i was taught to never take life for granted. to live a little, to love with everything i have, to never give up, to beleive in myself. but most of all, fight for myself.

that's life.
if nothing else, it's life. it's real.
and sometimes it fucking hurts,
but it's sort of all we have.

you know what? bite me skank & go play in traffic :)

don't look book and grieve over the past. it's gone. don't be troubled by the future. it hasn't come yet. live in the present and make it so beautiful that it's worth remembering.

you're an asshole. but i think i'm getting used to you. i like that fact that you talk incessantly. i got a thing for assholes who tell good stories. i think that drinking is the only thing you can do right. you're gonna self-destruct. i think that's what i like.

one day, you will miss me like hell.
and you'll wish you never fucked it up.
and one day you'll come running back
to what could've been yours, should've
been yours. and you'll see that this time
around i'm the one not giving a
damn, and fucking ignoring you.

if you obey all the rules..
you'll miss all of the fun.

i'm just a summer girl. i wear flip flops. when i let my hair down that's when the party starts. who needs a boyfriend? i got my girls. and when we're together, the summer never ends.

your voice was the soundtrack to my summer. do you know your unlike any other. you'll always be my thunder. your eyes are the brightest of all the colors, i don't ever wanna love another. you'll always be thunder. so bring on the rain and bring on the thunder.

in life you're going to meet people you wish you never did.
stay with people you wish you'd never leave.
& say goodbye to people you wish wouldn't go.

a promise is forever, at least that's what they say. welcome to reality. they're broken, everyday.

tradgedies happen. what are you going to do quite, give up? no. i realize now that when your heart breaks you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're still alive because you are that pain you feel. that's life, the confusion and fear. that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for.

i want someone to care so much,
even though i say i don't.
i push people away who start to
love me because i know that if they
stopped loving me ; it would kill me.

forget regret, or life is yours to miss.

this feeling is pure confusion. i want to let go, forget everything we ever had. but then once i walk away, i'm afraid you'll realize how special everything we had was, and you'll come running back to me.

your life's a question without answers
a book left without an ending
wherever it may lead you
it's all up to you.

this really shouldn't be like this. the consistent arguing, the constant ignorance. what happened?
why did we have to fall apart like this.

so wear your sunglasses in the dark.
laugh like crazy about something that happened yesterday.
people are going to love you,
people are going to hate you.
but beautiful, they're just jealous.
and it's okay to be yourself.

this is your life you can't just sit around
& wait for something good to happen.

life is simple, you're just making it complicated.
you're born a nobody, so live fast, and die a somebody.

and i think maybe the worst feeling
is being forgotten by someone
you could just forget about.

i hope you're learning to listen.
and i hope you're learning to stay.
and i hope you find what you're missing.
and i hope that you're making your way.

i'm sitting here trying my hardest not to look your way. not really because i don't want to see you, i just know that when i look up, you won't be looking back.

she talks too loud. she says things she should keep to herself. she's slow and silly. she can be very thickheaded and rude. she wants too much. she stays hidden behind a fake smile. she cries at night to the sad songs on the radio. she runs away from the truth. she doesn't want to do anything but lay in his arms.

when i say i love you, don't look at me wierd.
like i don't know what i'm talking about,
because for once i actually do.

she stands there more heartbroken than ever before,
as if her whole world just came crashing down.
and the sad part is, that the boy that broke her heart
doesn't even seem to notice.

it only takes a few heartbreaks,
to let you know boys suck.

yeah, i understand now. i know i'm always that girl. never the girl. just that girl, the one that gets used, hurt lied to, betrayed, confused. the one that boy goes to when he needs someone to hold on to. the one that's never the girl, i'm always the second best. never have i been the one to make boys fall weak at the knees, drop everything else cause they love me so much, want nothing more than to just to be with me, be amazingly happy cause they have me. i'm the other girl, and i'm getting used to it.

i've come to realize that you can't usually get what you want.
you can't just sit there waiting to be noticed, you can't sit there expecting someone to love you,
because the person that feels the same way may just be sitting and waiting like you are.
you need to find each other.

mistakes happen.
fuck anyone who tells you what you did was wrong.
one day they'll go through the same thing,
and then they'll be sorry for ever treating you like shit.

we're friends, real friends.
and that means, no matter how long it takes,
when you finally do decide to look back,
i'll still be here.

people aren't perfect, people can change.
they make mistakes. it's up to you to decide who's
worth forgiving and forgetting.

i'm a liar.
it's my secret no one knows.
no i don't miss you anymore.
no i don't think of you.
it's such a game to seem adored.
no i don't love you anymore

don't settle for the one that kisses your ass.
wait for the one who pushes your buttons and pisses you off,
on a daily bases. love isn't supposed to be easy.
it's supposed to be worth it.

sometimes it's tough being a girl.
if you hate a pretty girl, people will think you're jealous.
if you like an older guy, people will call you a slut.
when you get in an argument with your best friend, no one will care & say 'oh you'll be friends tomorrow'
and when you fall for the right person, everyone thinks he's wrong for you.

i'm reading that note that you gave me
you know, the one that said " you're the only girl i want. i'll wait forever "
well where are you now?
why are you with her?

be care ful who you tell your problems to.
80% of them don't care.
19% of them are glad you have them.

after all of the broken hearts, i've finally figured out my problem.
i fall in love a little too late.
i gaurd my heart like some kind of castle.
i don't let them in when they want.
i wait until their long gone.
then, i realize they were the one i wanted all along.

call me a slut. call me a whore.
call me whatever. i've heard it before.
say that i'm fake. say that i lie.
say what you want.
you won't see me cry, cause none of it's true.
but calling me all this shit,
what the hell does it make you?

what's so cool about teasing?
what's so cool about cheating?
what's so cool about fighting?
what's so cool about drugs?
what's so cool about drinking?
what's so cool about rumors?
every night someone cries because they were teased.
every night someone cries because their bf/gf cheated on them.
every night someone cries because they got into a fight.
every night someone cries because their friend died of a drug overdose.
every night someone cries because their little brother was killed by a drunk driver.
every night someone cries because they had a rumor spread about him.
1/2 of those people will look to suicide for an answer.
do you want to be the reason?

how do you prepare a heart to be broken, or dreams to fall through.
how do you let go of a miracle, that means everything to you.
how do you walk away, with the tears in your eyes.
letting go isn't easy, you just pray you'll survive.

the greatest part of life is
finding someone who knows
all of your faults, and still loves you
more than life itself.

stay with me
you're the one thing i need.
you ake the hardest things seem easy.

you're the closest thing to perfection
and that's why i don't want you.

i wasn't prepared for what's to come,
a life made of memories gone so young.

i NEVER gave up on you, but you're pushing me in that direction.

don't say to your friends "oh i can get her" in your dreams my dear, i can do better. flowers are okay, jewelry's best. look at me you idiot, not my chest. i don't have a problem with expressing my feelings. i know when you're lying, you look at the ceiling. don't call me a girl, a babe, or a chick. i am a woman, get you dick!?

pictures don't change
just the people in them

nobody knew that you sent me texts at night
saying "good night, i love you" or in the morning saying
"good morning, beautiful. did you sleep well?"
nobody understood why i fell for you.
all they saw was a result ; a broken heart.

i can't handle being friends with you right now.
it's not completely because of what you did to us, to me.
but you're a constant reminder of what i did to myself.
i chose to believe you, every word that came out of your mouth.
i wouldn't be sitting her with mascara staining my cheeks
if i didn't believe you. so when it's easier to blame you,
i know that i'm the one to blame for my own broken heart

we don't fight to win.
we fight because, there's something worth fighting for.

i swear to you on, everything i am,
and i dedicate to you all that i have
and i promise you that i'll stand right by your side.
forever and always, until the day i die.

someone once said : it's the good girls
who keep diaries. the bad girls
never have the time. me,
i just wanna live a life i'm going to remember.
even if i don't write it down.

if you like her, tell her.
chances are she loves you twice as much.

cinderella walked upon broken glass.
sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
love means blood, sweat, and tears.
love means facing your biggest fears.

we're not mean - we're honest.
if you think we don't like you -
chances are we probably don't. when we
laugh - we're probably laughing at you.
when you talk about us,
all we say is " talk louder bitchh "

the biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone,
you once had the time of your life with.

scatter me across the sky.
it'll shine all night. and just like a star,
i'll fall for you.

the first time you fall in love, it changes you forever.
and no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away.

so i wake up, put my make up on. pick up the phone, no ones home. i need to break out, get me some take out. stand out in a crowd. i wanna scream aloud, that i'll be okay.

i used to be a strong girl, but so many things have changed.a lot has happened and i've had to deal with so much more than any person should ever have to go through.and you know something? i finally broke.everything around me crashed, and i fell right with it.i'm not that strong anymore.

5, 388 youths are arrested.
4, 210 teenagers get a STD.
3, 610 teens are assaulted.
80 of those teens are raped.
2, 861 teens drop out of school.
1, 377 teenagers become mothers.
1, 106 teenage girls get an abortion.
1, 000 teenagers begin drinking alcohol.
500 teens begin using drugs.
420 teenagers get arrested for drug use.
6 teenagers commit suicide.
every single day..all i'm asking is that you think about that for a minute.

life isn't easy.
love sucks. boys lie.
friends stab. people die.
parents yell. you always try.
you're never good enough.
and you don't know why.

where do you go when the door is slammed in your face,
when everything that once comforted you now only frightens you,
and the one who said i'll always be there, is gone?

love like you've never been hurt.
cry like you have a million tissues.
scream like the world is a pillow.
sing like no one is listening.
kiss like nothing else matters.
live how you want to.

i can yell at you, be mad at you.
say stupid things, and take them back.
even say i hate you. but nobody in the whole world,
cares about you more than me.

best friends are the ones you can
get mad at only for an hour because
you have important stuff to tell them.

and tonight will go on forever while we walk
around this town like we own the streets and stay
awake through the summer like we own th heat
it's too late to change the past; so don't wait too long
to change the present, because tomorrow isn't promised and
yesterday is gone forever.