Monday, April 03, 2006

• I Miss Her So...

   

   

   

  It was so hard - I promised myself I wouldn't cry when we were taking her there - and I promised I wouldn't cry when we were walking up to the vet clinic - and I promised I'd be strong for her - but I couldn't... I couldn't because I love her so much.  It is the kind of love that has no boundries and she was the perfect example of why God created such beautiful and caring animals for such lucky and different people like my family.

  It has only been two days and I miss her terribly - the way she would come running up to me when I came home from work with her tail wagging and her eyes gleaming for affection - the way she seemed to smile in that ever so sweet and innocent smile she does - and it's just so hard because I miss her so much and I loved her so much.  Even when her two back legs weren't working the way they used to she still loved me more then any thing else could love on this earth.  And to see her suffer the way she had for the last two weeks was so hard because my great and awesome dog doesn't deserve this and never in a million years did I think two weeks ago that we would have put her to sleep... and here I am wishing I could have her back.

  The hardest part was watching them put her to sleep and how peacefully she went - it was literally like watching her fall asleep.  By then I was balling my eyes off, but I don't think there was a soul that knew my dog that didn't cry when they heard about it.  My dog touched peoples lives; she would come with me to the near by shelters for children and she would play with them and make the happy again.  She was the type of dog that never bit any one, never hurt any one, never not ran up to some one and showed some type of affection - she was simply Pandy.

  My family is sad right now because in a lot of ways we lost one of the best things to ever happen to us and we all miss her very much.  She was a part of our family and she deserved every right to be that much.  I really really miss her so much and its hard not having her there at the end of my bed digging her nose in the blankets keeping me up for most of the night.

  I hugged her as she laid on the table asleep in a never ending dream and I said my goodbyes for the last time - hugging her lifeless body and kissing her sweet head.  It hurt so bad to know that I will not see her again until I die - as I hope that God does indeed allow dogs into heaven... because how could He have created such a wonderful animal and not allowed it to be apart of us later on.

  I love you so much, my chick magnet (just take this dog on a walk and they all want to pet her... and you), and I hope you are having the time of your life up in heaven.  We miss you dearly.

  Pandora Joseph April 12, 1995 - April 1, 2006

  R.I.P.

  Bri

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