Wednesday, July 02, 2008
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My heart is torn this week
My heart is torn this week. I have never been so convicted by the Holy Spirit in all my years and I am totally ready to work. It started this past Sunday at church. (I may not have mentioned, but the home church has stopped because the ones coming wouldn’t turn from their sin so we have been visiting the Baptist church down the road from us for a few weeks) There are 2 vans full of middle and high school kids that come to the church without their parents. Some of them also bring their younger siblings with them. This past Sunday one of the younger girls, age 4, was acting up in church playing with the youth. Now mind you more of the people in the church don’t want the youth there so they sit alone in the back of the church. We happened to be late this past Sunday so we sat in the back of the church. Well, this little girl was just really acting up and I kept feeling I should do something but I didn’t know what to do. Finally then a deacon picks her up and sits her on the pew behind us. She was so mad that she rolled off the pew, into the floor and under the pew. She wouldn't leave to go to children's church (why is it that we send kids away to children’s church anyway???) so the deacon picks her up and walks off with her. Mind you now this child was no longer saying a word, she was just laying there under the pew.
I felt so guilt for not doing anything and then the preacher starts to speak. What does he preach about? Letting the Holy Spirit lead you! By now I am about in tears and I know it is God speaking to me so I get up to go check on this little girl. I find her all alone in the nursery! I go in and start talking to her. She was so dirty, her clothes were dirty, her hair wasn’t brushed… she was a mess! My heart just broke for this child. After talking with her for a few minutes I told her I was going to go back to church and asked her if she would like to go with me. She asked if she could bring the polar bear she was holding and I said yes and off we went! She sat with me like a little angel! Later that night she sat with me again for the evening service and do you know that one of the grown men in the church had the NERVE to come up to me and tell me he was sorry that I had to deal with that little girl and that he can’t stand her! I wanted to just scream!!!
So while we aren’t crazy about the pastor, we are going to join the church because there is a great need in it. We talked with the youth pastors wife tonight and she was thrilled that we wanted to help with these kids. I told her how great I thought it would be if we could find enough people in the church to kind of divide the kids up into foster families within the church that would be the parents they didn’t have. She was so glad to hear me say this as it was something they had been trying to do for a long time. This 4 year old and her older sister are going to be our families. We are hoping that other families will join in and that we can truly make a difference in these kids’ lives. Not just by loving them, but by teaching them to be Godly.
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Comments (6)
~Sarah
since i am against corporate church for many reasons that colors my answer! ~smile~ but it sounds like this church just wants to boost it's membership, not act like Christ. do you honestly think that deacon's actions reflected Christ's? why would you want to be a part of a church that didn't reflect Christ? just food for thought.
@A_Godly_Homemaker - Because we do reflect God's love and therefor would be a light to try and change things. If audults don't know they are doing something wrong, they can't change and I am not at all afriad to speak up and teach with scriptures backing up what I say.
That's beautiful. I am so proud of you for following the spirit. One time when i was a teacher in a primary class there was a little boy acting up and I thought angrily to myself that he needed to learn to be reverent. But i felt the spirit whisper, "No he needs to learn that he is loved. And then he will be reverent." Wow! I took control over my own stubborn feelings, and put my arm around him. he was quite the rest of the meeting.
I think being loved and being godly go hand in hand. Maybe they are even the same thing. because God is love.
Wow - it seems like God dropped that into your lap. It is difficult sometimes to know what to so but it sounds like you handled it well. Perhaps God can use you all to change some hearts there - even for a season. What are your husband's thoughts on it? There are so many little ones out there like that little girl and you never know the impact you can have by just reaching out to one child.
good for you! some people just don't have compassion. it's sad.