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| WELL WELL WELL-
Its been a while.
A lot has happend to since my last post.
I turned 21.
I got a new car.
Got a wonderful, wonderful boyfriend. (honestly the best thing ever)
Had a wisdom teeth removed
then a month later, got my tonsils removed, and my ovula cut. OUCHY.
I quit my job :(
got a new job :)
quit that job :) (i HATED it)
and got a brand new job :) (and i love it)
been to a bunch of royals games with my sweetie
been swimming a couple times this summer
and thats about it.
Let me tell you one thing... I honestly thought i was going to maybe die when i got my tonsils out-
If only I had known what kind of pain I was going to be in, i would have NEVER done it.
People told me id be eatting icecream for a week, then be fine.
UM. no.
I couldnt even drink water without crying. It was by far, the worst thing iv ever went through.
2 weeks of tears.
but- i did get flowers and ballons from my sweetie :)
im spoiled...and i love it.
Next time i update this thing, i hope i dont have to tell you about any more surguries :)
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| so in my last post, i was really annoyed at someone...
I have hung out with this person since my last post, and they have proven me right..
I dont need someone in my life who calls me names... and hurts my feelings, just because hes hurting.
hurting people, HURT people.
anyways, thats over. iv come to realize, i deserve A LOT better then that.
I do continue to pray for him though, he needs MATURITY in the lord.
anyways, i turn 21 on thursday... pretty exicted-- going to dave and busters with the girls thursday night.
I got a nintendo wii for my bday.. i love it.
what other games do they have that are cool for the wii?? | | |
| and another thing..
Im a nice girl-
My mom used to tell me i needed to start being nicer to people
and i changed, IM A VERY NICE GIRL NOW.
and im sick of people thinking they can walk all over me..
and talk to me however they want.
Im not gonna be rude to you...because it only hurts myself.
but im sick of people thinking they can be rude, just because im not gonna say anything back.
:) anyways. | | |
| Immature: The word someone used to say about me.
Ill tell you what immature is not.
Immature is not leaving the school and boyfriend you loved to find your passion, and purpose for education.
Immature is not going to a brand new school, where you didnt know a single soul.
Immature is not wasteing my parents money anymore, by going to a school where I had no major.
Immature is not moving back home.
Immature is not being independent.
You say that im immature because i got mad because you ignored me, because you were picking drinking over me, and because I was having the worst day of my life, and you couldnt care about anyone else but yourself.
Im a girl.
dont you ever call me immature again whenever I get worked up.
If you cant handle me at my worst, then you dont deserve me at my best.
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| Today was one of the worst days iv had so far.
i found out my car was totalled a couple days ago..
well it comes out, i still owe money on it.
AND i dont get a new car.
Im just really upset, and down about it.
I dont know what im gonna do.
everythings seems to be going wrong lately.
like.... everything.
and i dont know why
i am a good person.
I came home today, and took off my scrubs and just fell on my bed.
I am not a cryer, but i bawled my eyes out.
everything seems to be going wrong.
sometimes i wish i could go to cali and live with my uncle.
Hes the best uncle in the world.
and he thinks im the sun and the moon.
he thinks the WORLD of me.
He spoils me to death...and just loves to love me.
i wish i could.
so i could leave everything here.
I ALWAYS give people my all..
and lately, iv been really really disappointed in how people are treating me.
I just want to put on my tennis shoes, and run a zillion miles away.
I would run to france if i could.
I would do anything to have a sibling just to lay in my bed with me
and just reassure me of how great i am, when im down on days like this.
but i dont have anyone. and it sucks so bad.
I just want someone to lay in my bed, and just BE with me.
i dont even care if you say 2 words to me..
Im just get lonely sometimes- i just need a brother or a sister.
or someone who actually cares.
im so sick of everything right now.
and tommorw is my best friend in the whole world's birthday.
and i dont have a gift for her.. and i dont know what to get her.
AND i was told to bring a date...
and i dont have anyone now,
guess my dog will be my date for now on.
hes the only one who wont forget about me. | | |
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