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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

  • FINALLY

    The wait is over my friends. For those of you who haven't seen hardly any pictures of my exchange year - I finally went through and stole everyone elses pictures so I could show them to you! (I took barely any of my own). I'll begin showing more, entry by entry. ENJOY

     

    NORTH TRIP: On a Boat to a tourist area of Laos (at the..Golden Triangle? the name escapes me)

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    Me in the back of a truck on our Burirum Trip 

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    Joe, Me and Ming in Chiang Mai

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    Some of the coolest kids in the world. East Thailand FTW. (They're like 10 - and driving)

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    North Trip at a really nice hotel: Here are the exchange kids!

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    Me and some Thai Kids from Chiang Mai University - swimming after some hard work building dams

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Monday, August 18, 2008

  • DIFFICULTIES

    All I wanted was to be able to return.
    .and be with the one person I care about.
    Hastle-free.

    I am a fucking smart kid, with good intentions
    I wouldn't have raped students or shown up drunk!
    AND I CAN SPEAK THAI! REALLY FREAKIN WELL TOO!
    WHY IS JUST A TESOL CERTIFICATE NOT SUFFICIENT?
    BACHELORS DEGREES ARE OVERRATED..
    ..AND IT'S NOT LIKE I WAS NEVER GOING TO UNIVERSITY.
    I JUST WANTED TO WORK AND RETURN TO THE PLACE
    I'D BE HAPPY FIRST.
    What happened to the Thailand I heard of, where just any old white person
    could show up and find employment...
    Why did they have to start following the rules NOW?

    I wonder if my Rotary Connections can pull some strings =S

    I dream too big.
    Nothing is ever as easy as it seems.

    >_<;

    blegh.....I guess 3-5 years..isn't..too long?..
    it's not like we won't be able to see each other
    for the ENTIRE time.

    I will go back and visit after highschool for sure. no doubt..
    and...my parents would love to have him come for Christmas next year..

    This will work.
    Willpower ftw.

    BUT REALLY THOUGH
    DAMNIT IT GOD.
    I UNDERSTAND YOU TESTING US,
    BUT YOU'RE PUSHING IT A LITTLE.
    CHRIST. 

    Whatever. As my mother says.
    "If you two are meant to be together - then it will happen."

    ...it's not like we can't wait.
    WE CAN. WE WILL.
    but it's still difficult, and just - no darn fun.

    It'll make a good story though.

    (ps. sorry for the horrid formatting of this entry.
    I am writing in clusters of rant and thought).

Saturday, August 02, 2008

  • "Home" Sickness

    Thailand.

    I was even more attached than I thought.
    I miss it quite a lot.

    Food that had so many spices I cried.
    Cheesy TV Dramas.
    Sweating all the time.
    Forks, Spoons. No Knives Allowed.
    Soft drinks in a bag.
    Soi dogs.
    AMA!
    Ratwinit Bangkaeo..
    Som Tum, Gai tort, and Kao Nieeo.
    Ajahn Wow, and Win.
    Singing in foreign languages in front of 1000+ People
    Krung Thep (NOT BANGKOK)
    555 not ha ha ha
    jai(ใจ)words
    Pair.
    Bus #77 (Green Mini-bus)
    an endless infinity of 7-11's
    ACTUALLY KNOWING THE WORDS TO THE TOP 30 CHART SONGS...
    Temples.
    Siam and all the well dressed teenagers to go along with it.
    Buckets of Alcohol.
    ASIAN PEOPLE.
    Having assigned seats in movies - and having to stand for the national anthem.
    Getting stared at while wearing my school uniform at Central Bangna.
    Songkran...and the bus trips.
    RICE.
    Free Concerts at Central World.
    SCRUBB.
    Running into celebrities.
    Fanta.
    Fuji.
    CHIANG MAIII AND MY FAVORITE "HOST" FAMILY
    Hill Tribes.
    Burirum..and the schools I got to teach at..
    Taxis' and their drivers.
    MONKS.
    being able to take trains places.
    and so much more...

    but most of all

    เสกสรรค์ กันทะใจ ที่เป็นคนที่ผมรักที่สุด
    ที่ผมกำลังรอคอย

    Gosh. It's so strange because sometimes I feel like I never even left Canada..
    I mean..nothing has changed here. My family is the same - my friends are still my friends.
    I remember my way around - which  busses to take etc.

    I am the only thing that's different.
    So it sortof just feels like a dream.
    I don't want the person I have become to fade away.

    It's hard because no one here understands how confusing it is to be back here. Not my friends
    not my family. Coming back is a lot harder that leaving. I am trying to be as normal as possible but..
    It's difficult. >_<;
    I became so attached to that country. I loved its people with all my heart.
    blegggghhh. Oh Life.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

  • untitled as of now

    I know where I am
    I know the exact moment I arrived here, and how
    I understand my feelings.

    His actions are the only thing left to toy with my mind.

    Thin lips pull back to form words
    His expression ignores the voice which escapes his tiny mouth
    His heart has other plans

    His eyes gnaw on my senses
    I am eroded
    Outside - -
    In
    My insides tread softly
    Fearing the consequences.
    My entire being drifts away
    Cement fingerprints remain.

    Years pass by as we lie here together

    Our lips touch, I feel our tongues collide -
    Yet he refuses to kiss me.
     

Monday, July 28, 2008

  • Back in Canada.

    So as of July 12, 2008 I finally returned to Canada.

    My return was smooth overall. Though walking from gate 3 to gate 67 with only one hour in Hong Kong was a little tiring with my humongous carry-on baggage. I also hit a little problem in Vancouver when I found out my flight number didn't exist [I was sent around the airport a few times, but it got fixed eventually - and also killed some time].

    I was greeted at the airport by my family, my best friend Alexa, and Lorne my Rotary Counsellor - we picked up my baggage and headed over to Dennys (oh god I missed Dennys). My friend Gabby joined us for dinner, and then I spent one night at home before the 6 hour road trip to visit my relatives the following day.

    Alexa came along with my family for one week to stay with my Aunt. It wasn't too exciting (Medicine Hat has absolutely nothing to offer..) but it was nice to see everyone again.

    So it's been around 2 weeks since my return. I miss Thailand but I am doing fine. I have music, movies and Thai Lakorns on the internet. I also found out that I have 1000 minutes a month to call Thailand (aka SUN).

    Managing a long distance relationship is proving easier than expected. I've technically already been in one for 2 months because I haven't seen Sun since May 28. (So for all my friends, this hasn't just been a two week thing. I've been managing it for a while, and it's been working. He and I still feel the exact same way. So. just because long distance relationships don't work often, that doesn't mean I am not going to keep trying. If it ain't broken don't fix it]

     

    ANYWAYS first Rotary meeting today. More entries laterrr.

Jamorn

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