Friday, January 18, 2008


  • I may be having a mid-life crisis.
    I haven't decided yet.
    I find myself mentally revisiting moments and places and people I have known.
    Sometimes just back to the beginnings of Ed and I,
    honeymoon 1996 sm
    sometimes much further than that, back and back and back.
    first grade
    It's not a compulsive thing in my head, but at least once a day something will send me back to some random memory or memorable feeling.  And it is hard to resist just dwelling there a moment or more, feeling the memory for the first time again.

    Doesn't that just sound so pathetic and well... stereotypical of a woman in her late 30s?
    eddie and Jen on beach
    I can't figure it out, why the sudden onslaught of reminiscence and melancholy.
    I'm not over the edge, or feeling depressed... in fact I feel brighter each day recently, but I cannot help but notice this urge.
    This impossible and redundant urge to go back.
    prom steve
    So weird.
    I know, I know.
    I am.
    Good night.

Comments (16)

  • soNOTcool
    Story of my life.  Seriously.  Maybe because I lost a parent and a lot of relatives at a young age, maybe I started doing this earlier because of that ... always remembering, reliving moments and feeling the emotions as strongly as ever, in an effort not to forget.  (This is also why I take photos.)  I think of it this way ... memories.  That is what they are there for ... to be remembered.
  • Mystic_In_Training
    Maybe there's something in the air.  I was feeling this a lot today, too... feeling compelled to read over old journals, getting lost in the past and seeming to live in both times at once, for a moment.
  • Nanny
    Jenny...please go back and remember now. Document it for the future.  Since Dad died I have tried to remember so much and it is not there.  Go back and make the memories stick
  • HappyHeathen
    That sounds like perfectly normal stuff for someone approaching 40. There's some truly awesome stuff still in store for you, and when it arrives some time in the next year or so you should take the time to fully appreciate it!
  • Tom

    I think when people start approaching a certain age it's hard NOT to look back.

    You gotta love the last picture.

    "Wait, let me get this hose out of the way"
  • MsButterworth311
    I think it's totally healthy to look back and remember. I'd be sad if I didn't. That picture of you and Ed looks like it came right out of a magazine! What a great looking couple!
  • X_naomi_X
    i love the pics and i agree with the comment above me here.
  • kitkatsplash
    I had the most wild dreams of my early life last night. So vivid. Maybe there's a xanga virus going around. Lovely entry, Jen...beautiful
  • jackie004

    Ahh memory lane..

  • farmerswife

    I've always loved your honeymoon picture!

    Nothing wrong with trips down memory lane.  Always, a song, or a smell, will take me back in time, too (and all too often, a child's voice, whine, or cry will jerk me right back to reality!  LOL!).
  • BlueCollarGoddess

    It's not a mid-life crisis.  It's not even really a "crisis" it's called "growing up".  We do it from the moment of our birth -- and if we don't take these little excursions down memory lane, what is life for?
    The joy is in creating new memories for that walk.  So go ahead and chronicle it all -- because in five, ten, twenty years -- the memories will be richer.  Deeper, and so will you.
    ~muah!

    (PS -- I wish like hell you could go to the retreat too ... maybe you could put up a button here?  I truly need ten more people to sign up by the end of February or I may have to cxl. b/c I can't pony up the rest of the ca$h on my own!  Stupid Money.  LOL!)
  • twinmom
    I always loved that picture of you and Eddie at the beach. 
  • eFairy
    What frejaluna said. :|
  • Scentsible
    I do the same and when I do, I Google people into the wee hours of the night. Sometimes it's good and other times it just drags me back further.
  • mourning2dancing
    My dear friend, Jenny,

    I cannot resist the urge to comment on these most shiny of photos.
    #1 - makes me so miss Florida, but Ed's gear is out of balance with those shoes. God made flip-flops for a reason - hello.
    #2 - I'm not one to use the word "cute" often... but... CUTE!
    #3 - Wow, that little guy looks happy.
    #4 - Nice tux... and the blue dress, the 80s hair and all = me swooning. Interesting inclusion of Green Pants Lady, too.

    Thanks for making me smile. Plus, I love thinking back... and looking forward... and living Now.

    BE blessed!!
    Steve
  • WIPRIDEinMO

    I love that first picture of you and Ed, always have 

    Maybe you're just feeling extra pensive lately, I wouldn't think of it as a mid-life crisis. I have times when I feel like sitting somewhere and just thinking about things. And you probably have some nice memories to revisit!

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