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Monday, July 14, 2008

  • to me, flowers don't fix everything or make it all go away.

    i'm so very sick of this...and it apparently never ends.

    on the flip side...i am grateful for friends who are there.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

  • We just are

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    "What we Tucks have, you can't call it living.  We just...are.  We're like rocks, stuck at the side of a stream"
                                                                                         -Angus Tuck

    Sometimes I can relate to this quote so much more than I would like.  I just kind of feel stuck, like I'm not progressing (growing, yes, but that's different).  I look around, and it seems like everyone else is moving...getting jobs, moving, getting married, moving confidently in whatever direction their life is taking.  And I'm...here.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

  • A year later...

     
                                         

    I think I decided to write on this again...but I haven't in a while (clearly), so we'll see if I keep it up.  But...it feels kind of weird, so we'll see if I can get back into it.  Moving on...

    I picked strawberries for over three hours today...it was a good time to be solitary and think while being outside without being distracted.  It seriously amazes me how so much can come from a tiny little seed... (not just with strawberries, but with anything that grows) My grandpa had the biggest garden I have ever seen, and he loved everything about it.  My mom also has a large garden and loves it.  Ever since I was little, I always said I would never have a garden myself...probably because weeding was not a favorite pastime of mine and the whole thing just seemed like so much work.  I have recently changed my mind on this, though...partly because I eat so many vegetables that it would be significantly cheaper for me to grow the veggies myself.  But also because when you think about it...how cool is it to create life, watch things grow, and take part in God's creation?  I planted a bunch of stuff in the garden this year and I just went out there the other day after having been gone for a while, and it was crazy to see how much bigger some of the plants have gotten in such a short amount of time.  So basically...it would appear that my grandpa's gardening gene has been passed on to me (at least a little bit of it).  Which is kind of cool, actually...cause I wish I had gotten to know him better.

    This past year has been hard... It has been a year of transition, testing, frustration, disappointment, instability, and feeling broken, among other things.  I have been praying a lot that God would show Himself to me and that He would show me His will for my life (at least in the immediate future)...because it seems He basically took the plans I thought I had made and said "um...no.  not right now."  Basically, I want to, and pray that I will be able to, see God...to know He is there...to be able to feel Him.  So anyway, the pastor at the church at our cabin has been talking about boat stories lately, and this past Sunday he talked about when Jesus walked on water in Mark 6.  Jesus fed the 5,000 then sends the disciples off to get the boat while he goes and prays.  Then later "he went out to them, walking on the lake. HE WAS ABOUT TO PASS BY THEM, but when they saw him walking on the lake, [. . .] They cried out..." (v. 45ish) So...why would Jesus pass by them when they needed help?  The conclusion the pastor came to, which I think is pretty cool and relevant to my life:  Jesus saw them, knew they needed help, wanted to help, was ready to help...but He wanted the disciples to see Him and ask for His help.  Therefore, maybe I shouldn't be praying that God show himself to me, but that He open my eyes that I might see Him...He is already there.  And that...is encouraging to me.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

  • hello friends.  i am not sure who reads this anymore being that it has been a good two months since i made my last entry.  anyway.  for those who might happen to be here....i ask for your prayers.  even if you don't know what they are for, i need them and would appreciate it.  thank you much. 

    harry potter countdown:  t minus 10 days
    this day marks the beginning of the end of an eight or nine year journey.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

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