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JusT_Corrayze
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Name: Corey
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: Queens
Interests: est. a good relationship with Jesus. MMA, and espn are the only thing that keeps my eyes on the tv. other than that, putting my body under extreme pressure, rather it be swimming, running, or lifting weights.
Expertise: Focusing on goals and reaching for more, making you laugh. Humor is the key to making any situation better. You know, I know, the whole world goes round.
Occupation: warrior.
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  corrayze
Member Since:
2/28/2005
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| O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
Let Thy goodness like a fetter
Bind my wandering heart to Thee
Prone to wander Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above
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| It's now August and I said in June I would start my training regiment again.I wish I could tell you that progress is going along smoothly, but there is no progress. I haven't lifted a weight, have not did any type of calisthenics, nor did anything to maintain. It's been 9 or 10 months since I did any of that and I feel I'm at point 0. It's come to the point where I'm asking for help to start up again. That's how bad it is. I was never in favor of partners, was not for relationships when it came to training, but now I am in need of one. I need someone to start me off. I need that someone to motivate me, someone to push me, someone to take me where I was at (and maybe more), most importantly someone to inspire me. Give me a reason to start again. Give me a reason to strive. Show me glimpses of who I was, show me glimpses of who I can be. Who is it that's going to bring me out of the dirt and bring me to the gold? Who are you?
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| I have the summer to get back into shape. That is about 2 1/2 months. I want to look like what I look in my profile picture again. Is it possible?? No doubt that I can do it but in that short amount of time? I have my frame..... but barely. It's as if I'm starting from the ground again..... I haven't weighed myself in awhile, but school and finals week definitely made me miss a bunch of meals....and sunlight. If I were to guess, I would have to pick around the 140ish range. That's 140ish bones. That's not my 140ish 150ish power-lifting suit. My core is not what it use to be. I ran 2 miles the other day struggling. Half way through, it's as if I never ran before. I almost wasn't there mentally. 15:07 is where I stand for two miles. Need to get that down to 13ish and I'll be satisfied. If 12 swings around, I'll be happy. I'm planning on taking the before and after picture. Stay tuned? We'll see. Keep on fighting.
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| Finally an update.I guess it been awhile since I've touched this. A little update on what's going in my life. Read it! It's worth it!
So I haven't lifted a weight in months. I never thought I would be able to do that. hahaha It feels good but at the same time, I kind of miss it. Priorities baby, priorities. I figured, after I get my degree I can own the gym again. I've stopped so many times before and went back and became stronger. I feel I have one chance with this school thing. Trying to make the best of this and hopefully come out on top. Since I haven't been hitting the gym, I've been trying to hit the books. As passionate as I was with training, I'm trying now to become disciplined in my studies. It's hard, but I'm taking small steps into the academic world.
I still feel confused with where I'm going. Later on in life, is about the money or is it about being happy? It's something I'm struggling with right now. If I get my degree, I'm not sure if I want to do accounting for the rest of my life. I picked this field because there's a need for accountants, the salary isn't that bad, and I know a bunch of people in the field. When I was kid and I feel like this is for every young boy out there, they either wanted to be a policeman, a pilot, or a firefighter. I've had bad experiences with the law so I'll scratch policeman off. I don't know anything about flying planes or even have any interest in flying one. Pilot, scratched. So that leaves firefighter. How awesome would it to be to save someone's life? Imagine the stories I can tell my kids, my friends, or my family. I actually would feel like I'm helping someone out, instead of filing someone's taxes or auditing some company. I like working with my hands. I don't mind the blue collar dirty work. So it about money? Or is it about going for the dream?
KCCC has started again and it's refreshing being a part of that fellowship. It's helped in my spiritual life and it's helped in my prayer life. The passion I saw every week last semester, I hope it carries over to this semester. We're such a small group, but the fire is strong. Vision conference with the school fellowship was amazing. Even though we weren't grouped together, I was happy to attend with the fellowship. 400 people praying and praising God. It was convicting and moving. My small group, Team Smokim, we were destined to be put together. All of us have different problems, different types of struggles, but when we were put together, it's as if we were made perfect for each other. 4 days I spent with these guys, and in those 4 days, I can say I have brother for eternity.
I just turned 22 recently and wow, do I feel old! You know, some people are saying "only 22?", "that's still pretty young", "what is he talking about?!?!", but the quote that's just be destined for me is, " I'm only 19, but my mind is old, when things get for real my warm heart turns cold" - Mobb Deep. It's such a great quote and people may feel like I'm young, but the experiences/happenings in my life, I feel are beyond my years. I think with age, I've become a fine young adult. Well, then just a young adult. No more stupid things! I believe my priorities are right and that they're set. I still remember stepping into elementary school for the first time and being so afraid. Sometimes I still get worried stepping into something new, but how time flies.
So after the Giants beat Green bay, I said to a few of my friends that I would cut my hair if the Giants beat the Patriots. 2 or 3 days later I retracted the statement because I firmly believed the Giants would do it. ( Ask anyone, I believed!) I retracted the statement way before the big game and it just so happens the Giants took names. I think I'm off the hook from cutting my hair because I retracted the statement way before the game. If the Giants had won and then I said I wouldn't cut my hair....... That would be wrong. I've been growing my hair for way to long. I'm legit!
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| I am on a spiritual journey and I am on an academic journey. My training no longer holds me. My friends no longer hold me back. There is no victory if there are no sacrifices. I believe when I die, people will be able to see God was within me. My battle has always been within myself because I've lived on two sides. Slowly, I'm moving on the right path. I've never been a prayer warrior, never been strong with the bible, but I always knew I wasn't alone in the fight. My discipline has been my training for the last couple years. I believe I can be better, I can be stronger, I can be more explosive, but this can wait. My training is a part of my life. My faith will be my life. I am not alone, we are not alone. I keep to myself because that's the way I am, but know that I am fighting with you. I am quietly behind you, but when the battle comes, I will be standing next to you.
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