It just occurred to me tonight that I'm stressed. I mean like shoulders-tensed grouchy-mood constantly-worrying-&-thinking stressed.
I got a message tonight from one of my students asking if everything was OK as I've seemed grumpy lately in lab. This reminded me of a dream I had earlier this week where I was in a bad mood and yelling at my students, just really laying in to them. In the dream it was like part of me didn't want to and knew it was wrong but the other part was in a really horrible mood and didn't care. Perhaps my subconscious was trying to tell me something!
So as I thought about why I would be stressed it dawned on me with a "Well, duh!" type clarity.
1. I'm in the midst of preparing to pack and move this weekend. I really don't want to move, but as my roommates keep leaving, I have no choice. So I'm packing up everything I own for literally around the 25th time and moving in to a small room with my good friends Tim & Julie. To get ready I've been sorting through junk, listing items on Craig's List and eBay, negotiating deals, sending packages, finding a storage space, renting a truck, and the packing hasn't even started yet.
2. I'm trying to find a job in San Diego. My friends Brian &
Cecilee are heading to SD to pioneer a Chi Alpha group at UCSD and
asked me to come along. I'd love to but need a job. I've checked into
a dozen schools and so far no dice. The only opening I did find was a
position actually at UCSD which I found out yesterday is a no-go.
3. I've been planning a trip to Europe. This sounds fun but it's seriously turned into another part-time job as I've spent at least 15-30 hours working on it every week the past month trying to find places to stay, booking flights, renting cars, checking train schedules, buying gear, etc. I need a vacation from my vacation and it hasn't even started yet.
I probably just need to go pray and unwind that way, but first I think I'm going to go grab a "beverage", veg on the couch, and try not to think about any of this for awhile - especially that I have to start packing & cleaning my apartment just a few hours from now...
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Comments (6)
hope you feel better :)
you'll be alright!! and hey, i didn't know you were hoping to transplant to SD... you know what they say, right? it's America's Finest City!! =)
Moving sucks. I've done it far too many times to ever be happy about it. Honestly, if you run out of time and need help, I could help for awhile on Sunday. If nothing else, I'm good at cleaning.
If not, best of luck with things this weekend. At least you've got decent weather for it.
Wow. Have an extra beverage for me!