I sit.
I think.
I listen.
I hurt.
I hate.
I love.
I breathe.
I'm just your average being.
I haven't had it easy.
But it hasn't been hard.
I've lost friends.
Both in and out of life.
They're well missed.
I think they know who they are.
I want to apologize for any wrongs that I have done to anyone who reads this.
I'm more happy than sad.
I
am in love with the most wonderful man ever. I have people that will
have my back if I'm in trouble. I have the most wonderful brother in
the world. I have a place to live. I have music that keeps my sanity. I
have a crappy car, but it works right? No job, but I haven't lost hope.
Keep searching...that's the my theory.
There are some things I miss immensely though.
I miss Kyle.
I'm
listening to a song. A rap song of all things. (And I know he loves
it.) It makes me miss him. "Send Him Our Love" - Joe Budden
A well said line...
"Can't believe that it's over, but if God called you, I ain't even mad at Him. He must've needed a soldier."In His Grip. In His Grip. We love you Kyle. Less than three.
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As
crazy as it sounds, I miss my family. I took so much for granted. I was
raised well. I have always looked back and wondered everything about my
adoption. But I really shouldn't. I mean, it's something that I'm
curious about, and what I would like to know. And which soon enough, I
will know. But I shouldn't be sitting around just wishing I knew all
the information that I don't know right now. It's not the way to live.
I was a gift from my birth parents to my adoptive parents. I'm grateful
to be alive right now. My families are gifts from God. And someday, I
hope to be at peace with my adoption. But clearly that's not the case
right now. Answers are coming!!! I got some balls and went down to the
adoption agency to request my birth mom's information. We'll go from
there...
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I miss my brother.
He's the best. My hero. No doubt about that. I don't think he realizes
how much I love him. How much I talk about him. How much he means to
me. We should probably hang out soon. For good sake, him and I get
along now. Why not hang out?
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So that's basically it. Just a little dip into my brain. Enjoy.
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