I feel as though...

1. this summer has been nothing but amazing.. and yes, everything do happen for a reason.... I cannot find the right word to explain how wonderful it has been since the us girls have grown up and learn to set aside our differnces just so we can be there for one another unconditonally. 
2. it is killing me inside that the summer is ending... this is real, this is it, I no longer am a full time student in school.. and seeing the girls once a month only makes it that much easier ...  when they were the ones helping me settle into this routine, now I need to look fwd to the end of this school year so it can resume...
3. I had everything tucked away in a corner and one email brought it all back to life. Since then, I have done sooo much just so I can tuck it all inside, somewhere hidden just so that noone would ever see... yet reading brought tears to my eyes and made me realize that I honestly did not regret any part of it.  Given the chance I would have done it all over again, perhaps not the way it ended, but .. hey a girl can dream right?
4. feeling refreshed brings on certain uncertainties... we'll have to see about that... it the  defense mechanism galore speaking here...
5. my body is soaked with wine and beer... how much did we drink this week ladies??? yea.. enough said....it is not even about the quantity at this point, it is the frequency...

I know it doesn't exacty spell happiness with 2-5, but in all honesty, I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT...

WHY?

Because 1 made it all possible

<3