Tuesday, May 06, 2008

  • Kween of the Queens challenge

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    Kween_of_the_Queens challenge for this month is ...

    DEFINE WHO YOU ARE

    Here are your parameters:

    This DOES NOT mean what you do for a living, or who you are in your family.  I don't want you to write about being a Father or Mother or Daughter or Son.  In fact, leave your family and your job out of this entirely.  I want you to tell us what makes YOU tick.  How do you see yourself?  Are you talented?  Frustrated?  Happy?  When you think about this definition, think about YOURSELF.  What makes you who you are?  What dreams do you think about?  What does it take to let you feel that you are worthy or good or respected?  Who are you?  Make this your own.  You can write or post pictures or put up your art or poetry, whatever you like!  We love seeing it!

     

    Disclaimer: I am coming into this challenge a little late.  There are a lot of entries out there already.  I must admit, that I have not read a single one yet.  But I will.  I just wanted this writing to be from me, without any other influences.

     

    What makes me tick?  Who am I?

    This is what I look like....

    Of Lisa 006

    It doesn't mean much in who I am.  But this face has been with me through my entire life. 

    I love animals.

    I am in a creative slump.  I haven't made anything for myself in what seems like a very long time.

    I get frustrated very easily. 

    I dream at night, but I don't have many dreams for myself in the future.

    I used to be a half-full type of girl, but several situations in my life have made me a half-empty girl.  Although, there are moments that the half-girl pokes her head out.

    I have been hurt so many times by people that I have loved and trusted.  I don't just have trust issues, I have a subscription.

    I have been told that I am a bit "stuck-up".  In actuality, I am so introverted, that if you want to get to know me, You have to make the first step.

    I am a loyal friend.  I will do everything in my power to help you out.  But I also expect you to work at the friendship too.

    I get overwhelmed very easily and almost anywhere.  I will retreat, be it a dark corner, a book, or as far away from anyone as possible.

    I used to be a very secure person in high school and college but have since been knocked about so much, that insecurity is pretty much the theme.

    I will be embarrassed by this post.

    I will think of 20 other things to write as soon as I post this.

    I am very grateful that you have read this far.

Comments (19)

  • bethro78

    This was a great post!
  • Kween_of_the_Queens

    MiLady,


    What a brave post!  I'm happy you didn't read anyone else's post before you wrote this.  I wish I had the opportunity to do that!  I hope that you can become more selfconfident in the near future.  I understand your being an introvert and often they are at first described as being "stuck-up".  My husband was the same way when he was younger.  Fortunately he has come out of his shell a bit now.  Stay positive, it will reward you more during your life than negetivity, I promise! You've been linked and starred~Kween
  • peacenow

    I admire your honesty... But I hate to hear what things in life have done to you... I'm kind of in that situation myself - the same but different... I can be cautious but I still want to believe - in myself, in people, in love, in goodness...  peace

  • ThePhilsBlogBar

    I have enjoyed reading this entry for this challenge.
  • arminus9

    Fox said it best


    trust no-  one
  • shortiegirl99

    Awesome job! I love reading your blog!
  • baldmike2004

    Dear Lmoisan,


    I'm really late getting around to the rest of the KOTQ entries, although I do believe I've "answered comments" that I received on my entry.


    I will add my two cents to say that I believe the internet, and social networking/blogging sites like Xanga can actually help people who are a bit introverted to socialize a bit more. I'm the opposite. I was a social animal in my 20s and 30s. At one time I juggled about four or five "cliques" of friends. But over the years, owing to the fact that I'm single I guess, I started to drop friendships. People would move away. Three friends of mine have died over the years. I would call two of those "best friends." My last "best friend" got lost in the "World of Warcraft" and doesn't even call anymore, nor does he have time to do anything other than play that online game.


    So I use Xanga as my social outlet now, since in the "real world" I'm pretty much alone.


    We all manufacture our existence to a certain extent. I am sorry that you have been hurt so much. I always hate to hear of people who are abused in any way shape or form. I hope that you can gain self confidence, overcome the hurt and sadness, and hopefully, maybe even through some of your online contacts, you will become that "half full" girl again.


    Take care.


    Michael F. Nyiri, poet, philosopher, fool
  • TheCheshireGrins

    This is such a fantastic post! Thank you for sharing with us even if you found it difficult! 5 stars for you.
  • magimooker

    I enjoyed reading your post.  Thank you for sharing yourself with us.  I'm sad too that you are not the half full girl anymore.  I go through phases when I'm not my usual optimistic self.  And, I too am an introvert.  I think we would have been friends in real life. 

  • NightlyDreams

    this post was hard for a lot of people. i think you answered it very well.  i was rather embarrassed after my entry as well.  
  • harmony0stars

    Ha! That was great. Really. I loved "I don't just have trust issues, I have a subscription." I'll have to remember that.

    People have told me I'm snobbish for the same reasons... I'm an introvert and it takes me a while to open up to people, particularly if they don't approach me first. Mostly I am an observer in my own life.
  • Get_Real_64

    Don't be embarrassed!  I don't know if you have read any of the other entries yet, but I did the same thing you did.  I wrote mine late and then went back and read everyone else's.  I'm glad I did it this way because I didn't want to be influenced by what anyone else did or said. 


    The honesty and real emotions in these entries are so wonderful.  However, I understand how you feel since you are introverted, as I am.  It's difficult to let yourself be "out there" with such personal thoughts. 


    I hope to read more from you soon.
  • Lmoisan

    @Get_Real_64 -  Thank you for your nice words.  I still haven't read all the entries yet.  I have been enjoying the ones I have read so far. 


    @harmony0stars - I like the "observer in my own life"  sometimes I feel that way too.  I really have to push myself to be more outgoing.


    @baldmike2004 - Thank you very much.
  • MirandaWrites

    Saw you stopped by and subbed... so I came over to see who you were! I'm so bad about reading the people who write from the blogring... I just love using it for topic ideas.


    I LOVED this line:


    I don't just have trust issues, I have a subscription.


    Only for me it's not trust issues, it's money issues. or a subscripton to Lack of Money Magazine! LOL.


    So... since you subbed... I'll sub back, happy reading!
  • Lmoisan

    @Mirandasuzanne - I think I need a subscription to the Lack of Money Magazine too...Hope it isn't too expensive. 

  • endlesssummer128

    Please don't be embarrassed by what you wrote!  It was warm, funny, and honest!  I don't read other entries before I post mine either, or it would change what I write,  For this one, I had difficulty defining myself without family or work.
  • WomanOfLight

    You know what? We seem to be a lot a like. I am also an introvert. It is nice to see your face.
  • EminemsRevenge

    i AM that i AM and never souled out along the way
  • victoria3114

    hi

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