Ok, bunch of applications in. Have a good couple of prospects for jobs. Also found a studio apt for 350 a month all utilities paid, cable free and a pool..a HUGE pool.  Also something interesting.  Three women i know have each told me they have a crush on me and would have said something but i was moving to PA at the time.

One is a realy sweet girl, almost like she read a book on everything i liked and turned herself into it. (i know thats not acctualy true im not THAT self centered) the other 2 are cool but i dont think i would.

 Ive wanted someone who will like me no matter what and for who i am.  She knows the whole truth of what happened, i told her and she still wants to see if we could work out. 

Problem is, now that i have that.......i dont know if i want it anymore. It sounds stupid but its true.

i would still like to get to know hollie more than online but that wont happen. which is cool.  i dont mind being friends.

So anyways things are falling into place finnaly.  Financialy i am not worried, i know i will get one of these jobs and they will pay good.  Emotionaly, im still a wreck...which is part why i dont know if i want to go out with this girl and bring her into my problems...but then again..im lonely and shes a wonderful girl....

ive got to decide something soon, its also not fair to keep her waiting...